Random things going through my head..

Once again I just randomly feel like posting.

I’m thinking about how friends come to me with their problems a lot. I always feel like I fail to help them. Even my friend’s cousin who’s in her 20s came to me. I really don’t know how to help her, she’s in some deep shit. She didn’t do so well in college, shes in debt, no job and has troubles with her love life. She once ended up in the hospital for a suicide attempt and just stopped going to therapy. Honestly, how am I supposed to help her? Whenever she comes to me, I feel like an asshole, because all I can do is encourage her and try to give her ideas on how to get out of debt and stuff. Really, I’d love to physically help her out, but I’m only 14.

Another thing, I don’t know what I want to do in the future. I used to want to be a Forensic Scientist, but that want is fading away. Eh, I know its probably too early to worry about my future, but I cant help it, I want to make sure I’ll be ready to get to where I want to be. Shit, I’m already starting to study some things for the SAT’s and I have 2 years for that. I worry so much..

A final thing, what pisses me off is someone committing suicide due to bullies. (Here comes a shitstorm of rage…)

WHY the FUCK do people think its okay to make fun of someone? I recently read an article on an 11 year old committing suicide in Canada, just because bullies wouldn’t leave him alone due to his disability. When ever I read things like this, I just want to snap a bully’s neck. Just because someone is different, doesn’t mean they’re nothing. I think it means they’re special, brave, amazing people. Even people with disabilities and diseases they’re all amazing people. This world is so fucked up, when will people finally realize that nothing good comes out of hate? Yeah sure, you get a few laughs, but really, you’re harming a person, an innocent person. How would you feel if you were just constantly ridiculed, constantly beaten and just alone? Most of the time, bullies don’t even fucking KNOW that person to really know what they’re capable of. They just judge on looks and shit, but they really don’t know who that person is. That person could be the most caring person in the world, she/he could be suffering at home, she/he can be the most smartest person in the school and they just hide it away just because of bullies. Man I know this is probably such a confusing rant….

If you are being bullied, fuck them. Don’t listen to them and BELIEVE in yourself. Be proud of who you are, don’t ever let anyone fucking tell you otherwise. So what if you dress differently, so what if you listen to different things, so what if you’re gay/lesbian/bi or anything at all? Be proud! Don’t ever give a shit about how anyone judges you, if that’s the way you want to be, then stay that way. Don’t ever let anyone change you just because they didn’t like who you are.

Well that’s all for this confusing rant. Fuck society, good night.