Right now I wish I could die… but honestly I’m stuck
My family has had mentally abusive cycle, and my mother lashes out out on most things i do/say
My real dad I never met him, for I wish I never do either, hes abusive, he never wanted me and he did terrible things to my mother ex. he ran her over with a car.
My step dad can be nice at times but most the time hes strict and doesnt care.
I have one friend whom only cares about boys, and me driving her to see them.
A new boyfriend whos another color, and my mom doesn’t agree with it. and sometimes maybe im just stupid because i just want to be touched and feel like im loved, even if its not right.
My whole life I’ve had school issues, and I wish i was smarter.
I had self injured before , overdosed, tried to drown, & all have failed.
I feel like my life is mearly useless, even if it isn’t , I feel like I don’t belong to this world.
I hurt myself, because I lie to myself and others.
I give myself good pleasures and cry because, of what happend in the past.
I just want to be in a safe home, feeling happy. But
it seems to far from now, Â I’ve been dealing with this sadness since
I was 7.
I just don’t know..
everyone hurts me though in some way..
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There have been those before you, there will be those after, and there are those with you who are enduring the same. At any moment, your troubles are shared by people all over the world. By no means are you alone.
We can depend on an outside source or we can generate the love within ourselves. A heart capable of keeping itself beating is stronger than one that requires assistance of others.