Condition is critical. What becomes an adult, the more you realize that you are coming from. Looking back … It’s disgusting. An endless series of mistakes, my own and others led me to the present condition. There are two exits. And only two. Because we can no longer be in this state. The first way of events. Go to a mental hospital. Throw a biological faculty. Continue to suffer. Parents learn about orientation. This life is not only spoil them, but my boyfriend. And it’s not torture minute, and a long agony. Can hypnosis and powerful drugs rebuilt my brain. And I forget the part about the past. But what then could be the future? Where can I get and what you can do at all with the help of a mental hospital? Well if even a janitor take. And it will be for life? Again, continuous torment, but that plan? And not only my anguish, but anguish and parents, and possibly a guy. In the end all the same die. Just before this fairly izmuchayu themselves and people close to me. Neither one will not be easy to close. But there will be a long agony. It will not be stretched to torment the year. Suicide. Selfish, but at the same time and humanely. I can not rebuild their psyche. Without a doubt, only two options. And it is logical to choose the second. And there are ways. And the money on them. There’s no doubt … There is only the fear of pain. But the pain is the price of death. To pay for everything. That death had taken an intolerable emotional pain must be paid not only life, but severe physical pain. In my country, to get pills or drugs are not real. Weapons, too. Therefore, only suffocation. His own, subtle way. It remains to wait for the right day. So hard to find a place and time when all the money has been spent on their favorite guy. The decision was made. The guy can not change, I am too. I am writing this so that people can logically evaluate her life. Suicide is selfish. But if you are using, why at least once, even if it was your last, to stay selfish and save yourself from suffering. Attempts have been before. But just do not have enough money on pills. And now they are no longer for sale. Good luck to everyone! Originally the text was in Russian. I do not know English. I hope google translator did not disappoint.
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During the day, no comments. Perhaps no one could read from a translation. It’s a shame to die at all without support.(((
If you truly want to die then I hope you find peace. Good Luck.
I’ll not support your death, and I don’t understand enough about your reasons for wanting to die to offer much help. But if all you want is support… good luck finding what you seek.
I’m far away and possibly just going to fade away like a ghost but, Dimatodima, I am here and your voice was heard. It is a shame indeed when posts go ignored..
I’m gay. Within four years, I meet a guy. Binds us together very much. But he does not love me. He needs a freedom. I’m tired of his betrayals. He was not persuaded. This is not my first attempt to commit suicide. But I did not get. It’s unbearable. I did not want to throw under the train or car. Strange people should not suffer because of my problems. But it seems there is no other outputs. I just do not know how to get my brain to think differently.
You cannot make someone love you… there will be others. Have you seen a professional? They are trained to get your brain to think differently
I’m afraid at first turn to a psychologist. I think that after this, I can not go on living normally. Mentally ill people can not work in the laboratory. I’m probably wrong. But ruin my life even more, I do not want.
It is stupid to consider suicide before seeing a psychologist. They have to keep it confidential so it should not affect your work. It’s crazy that you are worried this will ‘ruin your life’, but you are planning to end it.
I think that a psychologist will only add to problems. A suicide will solve all problems at once. I have a strange concept of life. 🙁
A suicide will solve no problems. It will create even more problems for the people you leave behind. If you think death is so simple you are very niave.
I do not think that death is easy. If it were easy, then I would have long since been dead. Death will kill mind. It will solve the problems of the individual. Why do I need to think about others when they think of me live?
No, death is never easy. Our instinct is to live on. Do you really not care about what your family and friends think?
I understand your concern with having a record of mental illness if you see a psychologist. It may be better for you to see a counsellor instead. There should not be any record of mental illness if you see a counsellor. You can talk about your thoughts and feelings, and it should be confidential.
People around me just use me. I forgot when my opinion is that at least some role. The last 4 years I lived only for one person. But I probably do not need him. For him, I like the same thing as for my friends and family.
I do not know where to find adequate psychologist. My attempts have failed. I’m afraid. But to kill themselves is unrealistic difficult. Especially in our country. Although the list was among the first to suicide. I am in despair. I can not go on living and can not die. It’s just breaks me apart.
If you don’t need him, then try to find someone else. I believe you can do it. You can find someone who will listen to you, and care for you. Don’t live for someone else, live for yourself. I tried to live for other people once. It was hell.
Does your government have a list of counsellors (конÑультан) and psychologists (пÑихолог)? There are private hospitals too. If there is anyone you are comfortable talking to, you can confide in them. I’m sorry I don’t understand Russian. I hope I got the words right.
I’m completely dependent upon him. I forgive him everything but a wild feel pain. For me there are not other people. Throw it I can not ever.
Who can help to order to Belarus tank with helium? And how much will it cost?
£22 from Asda u.k. I think your need two.
Have you got a tesco in belaarus? or could try a party shop.
I weigh just 50 kg. I do not know how many tanks I need. You can tell the value of $, as well as how to order?
Why every unsuccessful suicide attempt causes bad luck to put up with the total in all? Live a normal life impossible, to die, too. This is simply intolerable. Was it only by throwing himself under a train can be to commit suicide?
Google party balloon kit’s
And where is the probability that this method work? How to calculate the exact amount of gas and time of death?
Go to youtube write 6B helium is better.wmv give you all the info and set up you wiil need.
Go to youtube write 6B helium is better.wmv give you all the info and set up you wiil need.
Informative. But is the Internet so easy to find materials for a successful suicide? This must be what a catch. I used to trust scientific articles where it says what, how and why. Poison and hang I did not succeed. Another failure is simply unbearable.
Where can I read why Helium is a deadly gas? What are the chances of death? Interested in the real article. The method seems unlikely.