I’m alone

  November 6th, 2011 by FrigginMartin

I’m 22 years old. I work in television, I work very long hours and I find my job very stressful. In January of this year on my birthday I got a phone call informing me that my two best friends were in a car crash. They both died. I have no family to speak of and no real friends that will listen. I’ve been struggling for a long time with this.

I’ve always been a shy person. I find it very difficult to share my feelings with other people. This hits me extra hard since a little over four years ago the only girlfriend I’ve ever had died in a car crash with a drunk driver. I have tried to reach out to someone who I thought would care, who I thought might try to help me. The reaction I got was completely the opposite. This makes me feel so much worse. There isn’t a single person in this world I can talk to. I feel so alone and so hopeless all the time. I try my best to hide it but as time goes on I just feel worse and worse. I do have a group of friends but there is no one I can really talk to. I’ve always been that one that never gets invited places. No one ever really wants to hang out with me. I know that its a stupid thing to do but I’ve found myself entertaining the thought of killing myself. I’ve been feeling this way for the better part of the year. I just need it to stop. I just need a friend or I feel I really can’t last much longer…

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