‘life is a butterfly, one day it’s just going to spread it’s wings and fly away’
I know that doesn’t make much sense, I wanted it to come across as everybody Is going to die. I’ve been suicidal for a while now…. I self harm and I have OCD. Most of the suicidal thoughts come when I’m really pissed off from OCD related things, teachers at school know and I think that they attempted to help me, they also told my parents which hasnt helped much. Life just feels hopeless at the moment… I’ve researched suicide so many times until I finally came across this website.
When I’m in a calm state of mind I know that I don’t actually want to kill myself it just seems like the only way out of all of this, I’ve Also thought about running away to a totally different country.
At the moment I’m stuck in a cruel cycle of OCD routines and I can’t see anything getting better until the OCD is better… I just want to know if everythings going to be ok….
:/ <3
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Hi Nat,
This lecture is about OCD, quite interesting:
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I have a little bit of OCD. The problem is, you tell yourself that just one more time will make it okay, instead of stopping, to make it okay.
Is there maybe some person you trust, respect and like, who could help you with your problems?
Well I think some butterflies has OCD. always flocking to flowers, I mean, what’s that about? Been there before, flowers aren’t that great.
I persomally dont’ have OCD by one of my friends used to have it. She said she saw a shrink for a few years and eventually she was fine… I mean, she’s a bit OCD with food (becomes obsessed with certain foods and will eat the same thing for a week) but it’s managable. Are you seeing anyone about this?
The best thing for you would be to get into therapy.
They should be able to get to the root cause and alleviate your OCD considerably.
Since you do have hope in your heart, everything will not be ok all the time, but you can overcome a lot of things.
Aw. Thanks, I have considered therapy but my dad won’t let me see a doctor, he thinks I will be put onto medication. I have told various teachers which just led to meetings with parents. Which didn’t help much…. xx.
I sometimes think of running away to a different country too. i guess its just the feeling and urge to escapeee. i also feel suicidal at times then “normal” at times. i think its something we all go through.
i hope you gain the strength to get up and stop the viscous cycle of OCD. you do need therapy and yes, you might have to take meds. but its just the best they have to offer for people like us: therapy and medication.
i hope you find your peace friend. <3
Thanks, I don’t see how running away to a different country will help, I’m only 14. I am also starting to realize the fact that I do need therapy… I hope you find your peace as well… <3.