I want to be myself

I understand your feelings completely. I have lost all of my friends just for being myself so i started acting like someone else, someone everyone would get along with. But this doesn’t work. It is so tiring to try and be someone you’re not. And without being accepted by others your life becomes worse and worse since you have no one to lean on and get support from.
I understand this a little too well.

And to be honest i never thought i would ever find someone that understood me and let me be ME.
But i did find someone, and he has never judged me for being depressed or suicidal. He loves me and will always support me.
And now i don’t mind being alone ’cause i have him. So please don’t worry. You need to wait for that one person to come along and completely see through the facade you’ve made for others. Then it doesn’t matter if you have friends or not, it only matters that they are supporting you.

I wish you luck in finding this person and i hope i gave you a little bit of hope!