Your family is supposed to protect you and look after you. I wish i had a family like that.
Ever since i was little i was bullied by my brother. And because my eldest brother seen this he would protect me and bully him back.
I understand that this probably wasn’t the best method of trying to stop him but it helped me through alot.
Now my eldest brother has left and has changed. I have no one to look after me so i have started fighting for myself and i will admit it, i am pretty good at it. However now that he knows i’m STILL stronger than him even without my other brother this pisses him off more. And i wouldn’t mind it so much, although i hate that he is willing to him my mum and myself to gratify his own stupid desires.
Mum makes excuses for him, since ‘he will only hit us if we get close to him when he is enraged’, but he usually destroys the house instead.
I am sick of living here because i hate how much damage he does to my life. I feel so empty ’cause mum still sees him as the favourtie and the one that needs more help than the rest of us.
I am pretty sick of this.
He makes me so angry, and that makes me want to cut.
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A lot of what’s supposed to be, takes us for a loop and turns us upside down so as to encourage us to cultivate our own strength. You’re focusing on what you’re not getting from them…sounds like they were never capable in the 1st place…stinks…but in the midst of that, look after #1, you…love and appreciate you, unconditionally. When you decide to believe that firmly, you will see how good things fall in place for you because that it the standard that all of your life experience is being held to. And heck, you deserve it.
Take good care of you!!! It’s all good!