My solitude

  December 7th, 2011 by xXBloodyRoseXx

i have given up on looking for happiness and love. i dont care if  im alone the rest of my life. i go to school everyday with my ipod fully charged and listening to it all day long. i dont care about anything but my school work and my art. music is the only thing i need. i sit in my school auditorium everyday after getting my food from lunch and take it into the auditorium and sit and eat alone. then i draw. thats it. that all i need is my solitude. friends dont care if im ok anymore. they say they’re tired of my “drama” and just wanna have fun. well i wanna have fun to bitches… thanks for caring so much about the person who saved you asses more then once.. who was always there for you when you were crying over a breakup or when your parents were fighting who went to your house at 11 pm and took you away and let you sleep in my bed… and yet you cant stay in for lunch to keep me company or call me to see if maybe i wanna get out of   mydepressing house…

whatever. i dont care anymore. i have my solitude. i only txt 2 people now. i only trust 2 people. and if i was ever to try to kill myself after school…. they would never get to me in time.. 1 lives 30 min away. the other works 15 min away from my house.. no one could stop me or save me… but im scared to die… so ill just stay in my solitude for awhile…. its better that way anyway.. for me…. </3

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