Quite a few people on here want someone to love, to care, to understand. And to do so in truth and action and not just words and platitudes. I myself am past the point where companionship would make me want to stay.
However , why don’t those of you who are seeking true friends try exchanging emails and maybe then numbers. I know it does not make up for offline contact, but you will at least have someone who understands. Who may be more willing to accept you for who you are.
And with the new phones they have the ‘facetime’ and other video technology so you can see and talk with the person. As well as computer software that does the same.
Just saying this because I want those of you with a smidgen of hope to have someone to be your shoulder. Someone to maybe give you that impetus to stay. Because death is a total end. And speaking from experience, nobody should walk around dead inside. It is not a good thing. Especially when your outside seems prim and proper so nobody will suspect. And every day you tell another lie to your self to walk through. Because you fear failing and not being able to end things at all.
Hopefully many of you can find peace and release by communications with each other.
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Great thought. I don’t like to be around the people I care about because I don’t like them to see how I am now, and fear that they would grow tired of me because of all my negativity. I just don’t see life the way they do anymore. And it isn’t right to burden them with not wanting to be alive anymore. They would just worry and feel helpless, frustrated. Nobody understands, unless they have been there. I never would have understood a few years ago. It is difficult to describe this type of pain to a normal person.
i agree whole heartedly….i can speak from personal experience that comunicating with others on this site can change your world…i was 40 yrs old and had never been in a realtionship with anyone,,,never dated.not once…but then i came here and told my story and a very specail woman offered me her shoulder ..to talk..and now, 8 months later we r so much in love<3. i am planning to move to be with her and it can't happen fast enough. I am happier than i ever thought possible thbks to her giving me her email and wanting to talk to me…i hope some of you will have similiar experiences and i wish u all the best.
Wonderful story mark.
Thanks for sharing.
Hopefully others will read what you said and be inspired.
Why not post it in a separate post to get more exposure.