stupid fucking people… stupid fucking world stupid fucking life …once again its time to slash the knife… fuck it.. becuse i see no point in staying alive… but yet i do .. evry fucking day.. i just cant leave.. i just cant get a break.. i wish life could just go away.. but i know it cant happen the easy way… why do i have to have a tommorow when i cant get through today.. the all talk .. and i know what they all say… its all just basically .. that they all hate me… they told me to leave.. they told me to die… knowone cared when i broke down and cried… but i guess then fuck all you stupid people .. and this is goodbye..
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Stop… Be rational. Don’t hurt yourself because of them.
get yourself a punching bag to beat on daily. it’ll help get that anger out of you so you can think straight. if you can’t afford a heavy bag, try beating the crap out of a bed pillow or something. another easy release of anger is just simple screaming. when you get to this point try screaming as loud as you can for as long as you can. all that frustration will come right out and you’ll feel better. may sound dumb now, but try it one time and see. now go scream and let me know if it helped even just a little bit.
Or you could do some heavy weight lifting. Works for me.
good idea Gaara.. I’m 190lbs and squatting 350 on an Olympic bar currently. that’ll definitely take some of that aggression out as well. a simple scream is a quick relief though. just yell !!*@!(&!&^%^&^&!%!!!!!!!!! uck! for like a minute straight as loud as you can. while you catch your breath you’ll feel a little less stressful.
‘Course I can’t lift 350. I’m still too weak… I don’t think I’ll ever be that strong. I’m female btw.
Saddest-Panda, try it out. Lifting weights, exercise, screaming, or another outlet will be much better than harming yourself.
lol Gaara. I would hope you can’t lift 350 being a female. any man would be scared to show up late for a dinner you cooked knowing that. sorry about all the friends you have lost. I’m sure they’re looking down at you smiling and will be waiting to greet you when your time comes.. life is so short as it is. no need in speeding the process.
@ Gabriel; I appreciate your condolences. Thank you.
@ saddest-panda; I saw your picture in the media section. A girl as young as you are probably won’t take up weight lifting…
Hello Saddest Panda….that is the name my niece uses…but I prefer Happy Panda….can I ask what country you are in?…Don’t want to council family without knowing they are family….lol
But know that I hear you….that I do understand….especially the rages and frustration you are feeling….but breathe please….you can’t get help unless you ask for it and can accept how it is offered…not always possible…but don’t give up….stick around…see what you can see….you are safe and heard here….truth
Namaste
Amakua
I care. Help me with my book and write an extract. We are actually quite cool. Despite what people say my mum doesn’t dress me funny and I’m not a geek. We can do lots of cool stuff and show these people who’s boss. And guess what? You are. Show them, don’t cave in and give them what they want. I have had to deal with the worst and i have never been able to tell people on here. Not because they will think bad of me, it’s because I’m putting the past behind me.
thank you all for your comments.. and btw i have tried getting help.. ive been in councelling for.. nine years.. or ten.. its helped .. but yeah.. wieghtlifting lol.. nah.. maybe a bike ride instead.. screaming or crying helps.. but i get most of my emotion out when i right or sing.. i wudnt want to punch a pillow.. just cause.. i hate violence.. and im a wee bit confused about that one comment that said.. im sorry for your loss.. your friends will be smiling down on me.. cuz nobody i know died… but ive changed .. i havnt been on here for a while.. seeing this many comments warmed my heart ..thanks.. i live in canada .. for whoever asked.. i live in the city of vancouver .. and i HATE it.. so saterday.. im going to go live with my dad on saltspring island.. i was there visitng him for a day. and i fell in love with the magical place.. its a huge island.. but theres no tall buildings.. theres just a small town.. four schools…and mostly its wide open space and mountains and trees.. i have my own room .. and two cats and a dog there.. and our roomate is totally awsum vibe .. we made friends .. its his dog.. and the dog loves me so much.. wen her owner isnt there shell sleep in my room.. and the two cats will sleep in my room too!!! its amazing.. the cats dont even get along… dragon and cozmo.. dragon is my purrrelsnufulufugis monster >.< and cozmo is my kissisnuggelybum .. they belong to our land lady.. who built the house !!! it has 2 floors 2 bathrooms.. 4 bedroomslike 3 deaks.. a woodstove a fire pit outside.. and its by the lake in a forest!! and its super sunny there… and all the people are super friendly.. and my dads a musicion .. so i gate to sing with him and peter (roomate).. and the dog (shilo) sang tooo!!!!! when i went there .. i was so happy.. wen i came back here .. i felt sick again.. so im going back on saterday..and going to there school monday :DDDD and i can still come back here to visit.. and see my girlfriend.. who im gonna miss .. :/ <33