I’m 15, 16 in 3 days and he’s 20. To him and I we see no problem, it’s just us and nothing else. Age is just a number and our maturity levels were so close. I love him but society got the better of him. He told me he loves me but not the way he loves her, he told me my age finally became a problem and that him and I ‘aren’t in the same boat’. He left me with no goodbye. Now everyday I lay in my bed and just think of him. I can’t live without him, I don’t want to live without him. I know it sounds pathetic but I want to fucking commit suicide.
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Hey sara,
You are right, small age gaps arent a big issue but btw teen and adult years some think it is a little.
The fact is you seem pretty mature for your age which is a big positive. Give him some space for now and stay friends and who knows what happens later.
Relationship bust ups are hard yep, but you arent the first and you arent the last person to ever have a reln break up.
The world is full of broken marriages so try remember its not only you.
You will find other bfs and loves and one day after you have dated a few boys, your husband.
Stay well & strong in the meantime. It’s not the end of the world, promise.
Take Care …
Ad Astra
Love is so fucked up. People will break your heart either for no good reason or no reason at all. It’s just so fucked up. I would know cause my heart is permenantly damaged. I can’t even give out my number anymore if any guy asks. I can’t even “hang out” because I always assume it’ll eventually lead to heartbreak.
You’re so young though… I’m 21 but I feel like 31. Don’t be a hopeless romantic like me… Live up the single life while you’re still young…
I have been in his boat before… It’s hard and slightly scary (legally) to be involved with someone under 18. Now I am pretty sure there is no law against dating or kissing… just sexual stuff. Maybe he is just freaked by the age?
Hopefully he comes around. But just know it will be a hard relationship to maintain with him being his age and around girls his age and you around boys your age.
Losing a love like that is always hard. Heartache is an indescribable feeling, but seldom a permanent one. Statistically, you will have other loves and hopefully the one love that makes so many people get up everyday in hopes of finding. I know you deserve it.
I was devastated for a year after my first gf basically ended it. Or I ended it cause she didn’t care about the relationship. But I never thought of dying, which is interesting.
So at 41, I”ll share what I’ve learned. We don’t get hurt unless we’re in some way already vulnerable to getting hurt. People with strong self-esteem, and unconditional love for themselves take break ups in stride and take perspective on the whole situation.
So here you are having invested all your eggs in this one guy and now you think you want to die because of it. This may sound harsh, but as a guy I prefer to see any gal smiling, happy, and empowered.
Another choice you could make is that you’re worth more than the experience you had with this guy and your existence is worth far more than giving your power to a guy who you believe decides whether or not you live or die. You are the constant in your life and nothing else…remember that! So while you’re in your bed, cultivate and ponder creating love from with inside yourself! That’s real love. When you have it within you, you don’t need to seek it from someone else. Then when you come across a guy who is simpatico with you, it’s a more real, easy glowing, give and take relationship.
I wish someone told this to me at 16…you have way too much to be grateful for and if you crossed over, you would find out very quickly what your actions caused. You are not a candidate and way too smart to be following that process of thinking for yourself. Take care.
No. I don’t think so. It’s only a 4 year age difference. Some people will think differently so be prepared to get some dirty looks. Though that depends on how he looks. He might look young therefore no one may notice.