Every time my dispair has reached a Peak I find myself unable to convince myself that the last time I decided not to kill myself was justifyd. because since then things have only goten worse. I just Want the pain to stop. Why keep going just to suffer more? Why do people keep trying to make me feel guilty for just wanting a end to the pain I always feel? Sine I was eight all I wanted was to not have to hurt anymore.
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That’s sucks, I’m sorry. But sounds like yr being awfully hard on yourself..
I know i blame my self for a lot. And put alot of greif and un needey stress on my self.. Everything will get better tho… Promise
Because most people do not see suicide as a viable end.
They feel like coping with and overcoming ones problems makes one stronger in life.
But we all are going to dies one day anyway and if one keeps living one is going to age and decay.
So what is the real point of staying here if one does not want to.
Most people are ego centered and compassion and empathy is a stretch for them. Best concern with how you know how you feel.
I would focus your mind on this…say it to yourself…practice it. ‘I want to feel relief and release from all my pain’. Best to say it when you’re in a calm place, or when you just wake and before you go to bed.
In this way you’re only focusing on what you want…instead of focusing on what you don’t want. May not seem like much, but trust me…it will help you…expect it to. Good luck!
Take care.