I’ve decided

I’ve decided not to kill myself mainly because it’s what everyone expects me to do. I have this thing where I just can’t be a statistic or a cliche so I have to be the opposite of what people think of me….. I don’t think that makes any sense but anyways my future is way more important than the past and present so I’ll grit my teeth for two more years until I get out of here and hell who knows maybe I’ll find love again I don’t know what’s in my future but I sure would like to see it good or bad 🙂 plus I have lots more drugs to do that’s initially why I didn’t go for a second attempt because as I was writing my note, to make sure everyone knew I was gonna do it out of anger not sadness, I noticed there was a lot of stuff I’d yet to do… mainly drugs so i guess drugs kept me alive in a warped way