Well, I’ve lost my mind. I don’t have a bad life, it’s the way i look. I’ve had to deal with blepharitis in my eyes, it doesn’t look appealing. my teeth arn’t great, but i get braces next month. But what’s really getting me down is my longer than average neck. it just looks so long and stupid and I just can’t take it. I hate the way i look, i hate the person I am.
I’m 16, i’m trying my best to work on my appearance so it doesn’t look as long. but, life is to hard. The only thing stopping me from killing myself is a girl i met on the internet. We’ve spoke so much, she’s beautiful, i’ve shown her loads of pictures, ect, ect… i told her about my neck, but she said it looks fine and alright, but i know it isn’t. it’s horrible. One day i asked her what she would do if i killed myself, she emailed me back a huge paragraph and it upset me, i don’t want to put her in that pain. Idk, maybe we’ll see what happens… I love her so much, but I can’t love me.
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Ever watched beauty and the beast? Or the hunchback of Notredam?
people make great transformations in college
That’s your challenge -It’s everyone’s challenge should they choose to embark upon that path….. to love and appreciate yourself unconditionally. It takes practice and reorganizing the predominant thoughts that flow through you and changing them to be positive. Life is an internal experience based on external events. You can bridge the gap between the physical work you’re doing on yourself with the internal positive nature that is within you. You only need to make a decision. Good luck!
I admit, that’s a hard one. My face was ruined by cystic acne, which persisted until I was nearly 25. I had some pretty bad self-image issues myself. I can think of a couple different approaches, but they involve having my mind in the gutter. 🙂
One thing mentioned earlier is true….contrary to what people say casually, you’re NOT done growing. You’re only 16, and you’ll be stunned at the changes that can occur between 16 and 24.
Oh, forgot to mention. Sometimes it helps to find a hero. Mine was Edward James Olmos. Face like a gravel road, but still successful in a career choice that’s fixated on appearances.