Ah shoot me. Or my bf.

So i got drunk yesterday.. Headache drives me crazy today. 🙂

but it was fun ! i took one of my best gf and we just were sitting, talking and drinking like hell. But it’s so nice to have so close talk. Usualy i listen people and don’t talk. Don’t know why. It’s not good, but it’s my way. I just know i am very good listener 🙂

But my problem with a bf and distance isn’t better at all. From amazing it’s going to shit. But he doesn’t understand that at all! For him everything is perfect 😀 So why i do feel like a shit? It’s logical – he spends time with a family, skiing, having fun and his day is not spent sitting and waiting for somebody. But as  a real scorpio i will throw him to my position soon.

I just don’t know yet how to deal with such relationship. It was really perfect first 6 months, really perfect. It seemed even too good, but i always knew that the fairytale will end one day.He even used to call me on 6 a.m. to see me first in the morning… He promised never kill romance. He did.

I put a note on my wall “everything ends.” I will put next “be patient & trust”. Probably it’s the only thing i can do.

I miss him so much.. I miss us. We are perfect team together.. But i don’t feel him anymore.It hurts so much :'(

Anyway, i know that one day he will have a perfect family, even not with me. He will be happy… He will be happy. Will i?