Those of you that are atheist, or some other religion, please take no offense if this goes against your beliefs, just know that this DID happen.
The other night I wanted to grab that knife so bad and I was shaking so uncontrollably, gasping and blacking out. As these thoughts of self harm and death came into my head, God stopped me from acting on them. I felt so compelled to try and calm myself, and I felt some force driving me away from the knife and those awful, awful thoughts. Then again just two nights ago, I wanted to cut so badly, and I walked towards my desk to find something sharp. As I approached the desk, I again felt God’s presence and I found I couldn’t quite bring myself to grab anything. I KNEW God was protecting me, and he continues to, but sometimes its so hard. So to all of you who think God won’t help you, He will. God loves all His children no matter how bad or good you are. My relationship with Him is strong, as I pray every day and worship often. If your relationship isn’t as strong, or perhaps if you lost faith, just TRY praying, try asking, and God will be there for you. He’s not going to make it easy, because life is inevitably difficult, but He will help you stop harming the amazing body He gave you. God gave YOU life, don’t waste it. You think no one cares? Well God does. Stop slapping him in the face by hurting yourself. Trust me, I have felt your guys’ pain, but I have also felt His intervention. Please, try and feel it too before you give up completely! Thanks for reading my story 🙂
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Only a year ago I would have thought you were some sort of preaching loser, but 8 months ago I had something similar happen to me and now I’m a believer too. Thanks for sharing your story.
hi sidad,thank you for the inspiration! 🙂 i almost committed suicide four years ago when i was really sick from anorexia and thought i would never get better.but i did,and God pulled me through. it doesn’t mean there will never be bad things in my life,bad things happen to everyone. but knowing jesus means that i know i can get through anything by relying n his strength. hang in there and i’ll God bless
oops. i meant *i’ll pray for you. God bless.*
There are no mysteries to our Creator, the God-Force. He only fosters and supports life…even in what we call death, is a return to life in the non-physical. Best to approach everything in a positive way…everything. Even what we call death or suicide. It is all known to God…rest in that knowing. We are loved more than we can comprehend. Say thank-you even if it doesn’t make sense to your logical mind…say thank-you and keep specifically asking for what you want. God is the Generator, the Organizer, and the Deliverer of everything. Be well.
i’m sorry to say that wasen’t god, just that animal instinct to stay alive
look at your screen name. then think about why you cant see it.