I’m filled with an emptiness, that’s tearing me apart
There is no tenderness, or love left in my heart
I gave it all away, gave it up without a fight
Now it’s the close of day, so I’ll say goodbye tonight
I can laugh and joke with you, play guitar and sing
But I will end up hurting you, with the pain I always bring
Good-for-nothing’s got to go; I’ll fade into the night
Don’t ask me where ‘cause I don’t know, but I’ll say goodbye tonight
Don’t search for me; lost souls can’t be found
Doesn’t everybody end up in the ground?
I’ve given all that I can give, done all I can do
I’ve lived all that I can live, but none of it was true
I will laugh and I will smile, tell you all I’m alright
But I’ll be leaving in a little while, I’ll say goodbye tonight
Those that did, thanks for listening to me
In a little while I will be free
I’d like to apologise to those that I’ve done wrong
I’m sitting here with weeping eyes, writing my last song
But there’s nothing left in me, no words left to write
I will set you all free, when I say goodbye tonight
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Hello Liam,
Beautifu…haunting…I heard the music from the first word.
I gave it all away, gave it up without a fight
Why do you give up without a fight? Didn’t anyone ever tell you that to be this talented…you have to live a tortured existence….until you learn to focus?
Do yourself a favour….listen to Don McLeans…”Starry Night”….a fellow artist that struggled with the dark side…VanGogh
Will add the link in another comment…it will have to be moderated.
And I’m listening
Amakua
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkvLq0TYiwI
Thanks Amakua, I’ve always loved that song but haven’t listened to it in a long time… it seems to have taken on a new meaning since I started feeling this way. To be honest… I’d rather live without the talent and the tortured existence that it brings…
Liam
thanks amauka for that beautiful song,,, its comforting .. and liam ,, your word have its rhythm and heart in it.. so sad but beautiful. guess you have some talent at writings,,! lets see the bright while in the dark
Hey Liam,
Nice to hear back from you…your story really is inspiring on many levels. Glad you enjoyed the song…I love it…especially when my son plays and sings…he is amazingly talented…but damaged. But he and I and my oldest daughter all share a passion for music…and their father was a professional musician…before his accident and lost his hearing. Talk about poetic justice…but that’s another story. Myself I have trouble with the words…but the music comes naturally…the joyful experience of it is selfish for sure…but I love that song…one of only a few that doesn’t have a memory attached to it….maybe that’s why I love it.
Me I spent years being classically trained on the piano…years of torture in the conservatory and auditorium…but such personal joy when alone…but am no longer able to play…just decided today that I am going to take up the guitar again…not give up the talent…maybe just focus it in a new direction…for a new situation…do you understand?…lol…don’t blame you if you don’t. English is my second language…profanity is my first and native tongue…lol.
So tell me more about you if you wouldn’t mind.
Namaste
Amakua
Hello Cindy,
Glad you like the song….have seen you out working on the site…like a busy little beaver as we say here in Canada….lol…so how are you? Here you would only be 20…but still very young for such wisdom…nice to meet you.
Namaste
Amakua
thank you Amakua,,! i found here really comforting place to be while you are walking a way of darkness formed by one’s own feelings,.. only short period but i guess it was really helpful for me,, for there were such nice comforters like you and others i could name.. maybe i’ll be on my way again,, believing i have the inner light which shows me the right direction.. and thank you again amauka for your great enlightening words that you give to people.
Good morning Cindy,
It is early morning here in Canada…I believe you are in S.Korea?…what time is it there? I can see that English is not your mother tongue…but you use it so beautifully…do you know that in English your words are true poetry?
This is what SP should be for…and I am glad if it helped you to face yourself and your world again. Know that for whatever help you received…you gave so much more. It is enough for now that you once more believe that you have this inner light…but someday you will KNOW…and the light will shine forth from you once more.
If you need to come back…always welcome…but if you stay too long sometimes…the moods of others will take you back to your own HELL…but when and if you do come back…or decide to stay a while longer?…then we will all benefit.
You are AWESOME
Lots of Love
Amakua