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The poem of my heart

by RedAndBlack 3/30/2023

written by RedAndBlack

I look around, Red, blue, white, black,

Hmm, what are these colours good for? Nothing absolute crap,

A goodbye, live well, farewell?

To you, although, who can bring themself to do this all alone?

Easy life for those who win, none to say thank you, I love you forever and never second,

You and me? I wanted to thank you for reaching out your hand,

Oh, but why would I thank you? It was me all along,

Under this all, who do you think I I’m? not a puppet for you to take,

Not an object for you to use and rape,

It’s the little things that make me smile,

The world, so full of […]

3/30/2023 0 comment

I need advice

by i_need_advice 11/7/2022

written by i_need_advice

11/7/2022 2 comments

When does it end :)

by LeaveMeAlone. 10/9/2022

written by LeaveMeAlone.

There’s always something new.
What more can I say?
There’s just always something new.
And it’s never a good thing

Well really, I do want to say more than that, but I thought it sounded pretty neat. Speaking of the word neat, I always thought that it would rhyme with caveat. But those two words dont rhyme.
I’ve been kind of, “productive” these past few days. If you can call it that. Well, yeah, I guess it’s the right word, the problem is that everyone says it’s not good enough. They just go “Hey man, you seem fucking miserable and you need to eat more. Just […]

10/9/2022 1 comment

Please read this.

by Im begging you not to give up hope 9/30/2022

written by Im begging you not to give up hope

Hello there, friends. I just ran across this website tonight. At first I was shocked because it seemed to be promoting suicide, but then I read the rules and realized that wasn’t the case. However, I didn’t worry any less about the people on this site. I don’t know any of you but I’m guessing I know the feelings you’re feeling. Please take a look at what I have to say.

Disclaimers

I’m going to make a few disclaimers before I start. First of all, if I accidentally say something that offends you, I apologize and recognize that your viewpoint exists. However, I don’t apologize for speaking […]

9/30/2022 12 comments

Courage 2 (quit/proceed)

by mortalcode 2/15/2022

written by mortalcode 2-3 min read

Ever let the anxiety sink ,the rage boil up
Ferment the pain, and bottle it up
Reflecting on the past like it ain’t slow enough
Mom’s always sad that I ain’t growing up
Pills help me cope but I’m still fucking up
Fuck going outside, the moon aint show enough
I laugh about death like I ain’t dark enough?
Friends ran away? I guess they stalked enough?
Fam patient with my death like who’s taking what?
keep a sharp angle, latitudes of my cuts
Force you to be strong like you ain’t had enough
have the nerve to ask what’s wrong…
God ain’t fucking […]

2/15/2022 1 comment

read this if you’re struggling.

by zy 12/6/2021

written by zy

I was procrastinating on my homework when I came across this website. I’m writing this all off the top of my head so just stand by. So I read so many peoples stories on here and noticed one thing, everyone on here is going through the SAME THING. I myself often have bad mental health and breakdowns, but you know what? nobody is perfect. AND DON’T SKIP, I know everyone uses this as a pity sentence but just spend a minute of your life reading this because you need to open your eyes. Think to yourself, do you think there is a single […]

12/6/2021 8 comments

losing a loved one

by cyberchallenge2 10/13/2021

written by cyberchallenge2

no one understands me, no one knows how much i suffer everyday, i cant believe im depressed again. i lost my loved one, i wish i was better for them, i wish i brought myself to show love and affection, i couldnt, i couldnt even keep myself up while im being stressed from school and everything, its so hard for me after the 4th(?) break up, it killed me, no matter how much i love him nothing will be the same. i dont wanna be with him anymore but i do, im confused, im so confused, i dont know what i want but all i […]

10/13/2021 0 comment

I don’t know anymore.

by urmom69 10/2/2021

written by urmom69

By: yours truly (a sick in the head teenager)
TW ig idk how to do this lol um sh suicidal thought and questioning everything and also SA

Why? A question I find myself asking quite often. What is the point in anything if its all nothing. In 150 years, everyone who is alive at this moment, will be dead. Including yours truly. Though it is up to us how we spend those years. A sad realization my 13 year old self has come to is, in lets say 500 years, no one will know of my existence and probably yours as well. Unless of course you […]

10/2/2021 1 comment

I feel empty

by tolstoi 7/6/2021

written by tolstoi

I don’t know how to start. I don’t really know what’s the main problem. I know I have a shitty life and I am kind of used to it. It sucks that I have to dissapoint everyone I care for, but I am used to it. I could go on without giving it too much thought, but the problem is my girlfriend. (I’m 21, she is 19). She is a constant reminder that I am not good enough and that I don’t deserve her. She reminds me all the time of how I dated my ex (which was fat, ugly and stupid) and how she […]

7/6/2021 10 comments

Only a bridge.

by EthxrealPoetry 5/8/2020

written by EthxrealPoetry

Today, on this website, someone said that everyone is sad.

I fell on that person that was convinced that, after reading the rants of all the people here, that every person on this platform was sad, and that was why they were here.

I do not agree (but I understand their point of view and I respect it), simply because I am the proof that their theory is not true. I am here today, and even if I have my own problems, I am not sad, I am happy even.

And I am not here to rub that fact in everyone’s face. Each of us is different and […]

5/8/2020 0 comment

this body means nothing to me at all

by nodira 4/5/2020

written by nodira

i drive away the people i love. they lose interest. i destroy myself. all i feel is pain all the time and when i’m happy its naive because it never lasts. ill never last in this world. im 18 now, but i feel like a child still. i cant manage responsibility. i let people down. they’re sick of me. i’m a waste. i build myself up just to crash and burn in the worst way at the very last second. and this fucking pain, why do i hurt so much? i’ve tried so many medications, they don’t seem to work. my intrusive thoughts come, and […]

4/5/2020 1 comment

Ingrained Within Me

by Pulse-Of-A-Clover 3/29/2020

written by Pulse-Of-A-Clover

My closest attempts were when I felt useless. When the sinking I had felt in my chest, when the lack of energy, and utter hopelessness within me had no reason to live.

More recently, I thought I was doing better. I thought that I had won over these feelings, conquered them; sending them back to the depths of wherever they came.

I guess that was probably because I had gotten a job that I love. One that I thought was too much to handle, one that brought countless nights of stress to me… but now, under this quarantine, I feel myself slipping back into old habits.

I expect […]

3/29/2020 0 comment

Feeling lost

by Icy_Dawn 2/13/2020

written by Icy_Dawn

Ok so me and my girlfriend have been together for 3 years and some change. I have not been the best boyfriend but I got myself together and made huge changes that I knew I needed to make. So last week I scroll through and see that she is in another relationship with another guy. I felt so much anger and sadness. It was a pain that I couldn’t describe but I wanted it to go away.

It hurts more because due to certain circumstances we were at her parents house and now its just me. She comes back and we cuddle and she says she […]

2/13/2020 2 comments

1115 Days…

by JCITM 2/9/2020

written by JCITM

One thousand, one hundred and fifteen days have gone by since we discovered you were no longer a part of this universe, our universe. It has gotten easier to process but it’s still not easy. The shock of it never ceases. It is still surreal. How can I summarize in words the cluster of pain we feel everyday given your absence? Let’s see. The reality that you are missing and missed our daughter and son’s 16th birthdays, his phenomenal culinary […]

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2/9/2020 9 comments

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I want the pain to stop. Here is my story.

by NiceGuy2001 7/1/2019

written by NiceGuy2001

I just

want

the pain

to stop.

My friend A_____ turned 50 last year. I organized a nice little birthday gathering for him, which was especially meaningful for everyone since he’s battling mantle cell lymphoma (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mantle_cell_lymphoma), and optimistically has another five years to live.

I’ve known A_____ for at least five years. I certainly considered him a friend before his cancer diagnosis several years ago, and as soon as I knew what he was facing, I promised myself that whatever support he needed, I would always be there for him.

We’ve always had a very easygoing, normal friendship. He has always treated me with nothing but […]

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Emotions suck

by mina711 4/14/2019

written by mina711

I’ve been looking for ways to numb myself. I get absolutely nowhere. It’s not fair, I just wanna be numb. I don’t wanna make an effort to even feel better anymore. I just wanna stop feeling emotion.

I hate being brokenhearted over my ex. I hate being stressed about going off to college. I hate that painful lump in my throat I get from crying. I hate the cold sweat I break into when I’m anxious. I hate the fire that burns in my heart. I want to be dormant and freeze my heart up for good.

I want to die, but I fear the afterlife. My […]

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4/14/2019 3 comments

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I hurt too much to cry

by Mimo 10/15/2018

written by Mimo

I’m unsure as to what to feel.

Whether that’d be to cry or to hold my chest in shear pain.

I lay in bed and hurt, as my memories flood in and take over.

You said you wouldn’t know if you’d move on, now simple days like these have me imagining what you’d do with that other person.

You said that no, it wasn’t my fault, that you were the one needed fixing.

Then why can’t you wait, why are you telling me not go wait for you.

I feel as if every time I love they become painful memories I live with, but what’s to life without love?

I don’t know […]

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10/15/2018 2 comments

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For I’ve returned, with less pain

by Mimo 10/13/2018

written by Mimo

To have been broken and fed to hounds,

Restiched and tossed once more. I must find my own paths alone.

For I am too broken to be man,

Too heartbroken to feel winds,

Too thought provoken to be alive.

I question whether I should attempt once more, knowing very well that I’ve failed countless of times, but what else am I supposed to Do?

After all that has happened, just forget?

Pretend that it never occurred.

I believe we suffer longer than others,

I understand you want to better yourself, but in doing that it moved me eleven steps back.

I’ll act happy to win you back, maybe that’ll work.

Because with my thoughts invoked in […]

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10/13/2018 1 comment

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Paul Durcan – Thinking About Suicide

by Taf Taf 9/1/2018

written by Taf Taf

Although I may never commit suicide

I spend parts of each day thinking about suicide –

Thinking about how I lack the courage to do it.

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I wake in the mourning with 60 per cent depression.

That’s how it remains for the whole day,

Except for the odd occasion in a year

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In the doorway or on the street I meet by chance

For a few minutes a woman passing-by

Who has the time to stop and talk for three minutes

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Or five minutes or even sometimes seven or eight minutes,

Who rocks back on her heels in her pink, hooped skirt

With laughter, no matter what the topic.

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Depression and despair are two different states

Of mind, […]

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9/1/2018 2 comments

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Leonard Cohen – Dress Rehearsal Rag

by Taf Taf 8/8/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

Four o’clock in the afternoon and I didn’t feel like very much

I said to myself, ”Where are you golden boy? Where is your famous golden touch?”

I thought you knew where all of the elephants lie down

I thought you were the crown prince of all the wheels in Ivory town

Just take a look at your body now, there’s nothing much to save

And a bitter voice in the mirror cries, ”Hey, prince, you need a shave”

Now if you can manage to get your trembling fingers to behave

Why don’t you try unwrapping a stainless steel razor blade?

That’s right, it’s come to this… Yes, it’s come to this…

And wasn’t […]

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8/8/2018 1 comment

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