it has been months since i last cut. I just Did it again , this time i was in the tub . I loved watching the blood flow off of my wrist, then pour into the milky water. It is as i am cutting to make a point to my self . I want me to know that being depressed is not a good thing and the pain is the punishment . I like the punishment , i like the pain . I like to see the scars on my wrist . It reminds us that the past is real and that is something i care for. Then i wake up the nest morning regretting everything I did the night before . It is a rough cycle i go through and i hate it . but at the same time i cant get enough
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Thier’s times when I love seeing my scars too. But, eventually thier always a situation your in when your embarrassed by your scars. I know it does not hurt that much, infact it almost feels like an area being constantly itched; but, it’s so much easier to not cut. That feeling of having to be weary if your cut is showing in public usually does not feel comterable. Cutting is loveable, but next time why not instead of cutting, remark that you wanted to cut. make a mental cut. It would be so close to cutting that you would not need to cut
Another suggestion would be to associate that feeling of needing to have a pysical pain to symbolize a pain inside would be to wear a piece a jewerly. certain bracelets and necklaces could be for different moods. You also shouldn’t regret anything because if it didn’t happen then you wouldnt be where you are today.
Pretty much the same. Cut and it’s great, next day see it and feel it and think about what you just did, cut again. Lovely little cycle.
Though scars do have their meaning, and well I guess regretting it is a start?
What happened to cause you to cut again??
Good luck with breaking the habit(if you want)…
You really shouldn’t cut or hurt yourself. I know about regrets. Hell, I have nightmares about them almost everyday of the week! But… you shouldn’t let them control you more than they already do subconciously. The past will stay. It will always stay. Either good or bad. Good memories can feel bad when you wish you were back to the past. Bad memories leaves scars in your heart that never seem to go away. This happens. I know. I feel it. But don’t hurt yourself or try dying because of it. If there’s anything wrong, just let it out and talk about it. I’ll listen. I don’t log on too often, but even if I’m not here, I’m sure others here would also love to help. :3