Lovelesspain, oh lovelesspain.

When is it that my life will re-arrange..? How come its so hard to stay the same, why do I constantly wish to change?

I don’t know if im happy or sad, I don’t know if im good or bad.. I try so hard for happiness, I tried my hardest to reach heavenly bliss.

How often must I cry, how many tears must I shed. I swear I want to die, I just want to finally rest my head.

I can’t help you with your problems anymore, its about time I close this door.

So I block out the world and I block out life, As I continuously cut deeper with this knife.

Blood drips on the floor as I type this last poem, they wanted the truth so now I show em.

I tried mom, I really did. I’m so sorry today you lose your only kid.

I love you mom, I’m sorry for smoking, I’m sorry for dropping out of school, I’m sorry for ever calling you pathetic.

I love you grandma, I’m sorry I can’t respect you for one minute. I’m sorry I used to hurt our animals, I’m sorry I said “I Don’t Care”.

 I love you big sis, I’m sorry I’m to clingy, I love you, and I want to spend time with my sis. You mean the world to me.

I love you bigger sister. I’m sorry I kept ruining my life, I’m sorry I was always such a dick. All you ever did was care.