snot nosed little punk

I’m 15 turning 16 this year, I think iv had deppression for a while but i covered it up by smoking about a Gram of pot a day for a couple of months, I cut myself alot, and all i can think about is jumping off a building in the city. pretty much the only reason im still alive is my best freind. I know that eventually Im probably going to jump. i know it will hurt my family alot but, I just know im not strong enough to have a happy life anymore. I’m also attracted to death, no feelings of guilt, shame or pain it just kind of ends every painful emotion and that is my only way out