So, this is odd I’ve never let out but now I don’t know I feel its necessary to put this out there I feel as if nothing truly matters anymore and I just don’t seem to care about anything including my own life by now..And also I’ve been so depressed and unhappy I know oh woe is me…I just feel the need to write this, I’ve never been truely happy it’s been so long I numb this pain that I occasionally get with pills alcohol and drugs and I feel great like nothigs wrong and lately I started to get the itch to do it more and more not to mention I’m I get the itch to hurt my self in anyform I feel like I don’t even have a purpose what the hellis wrong with me ?! I don’t have a bad life ! I dont need help either but you see I just..don’t feel the need to be happy at all.. So I kinda just wanted to say fuck this world excuse my language I don’t want to censor myself. Anyway to anyone that’s reading this I don’t know why you are. I don’t matter and nothing seems to have purpose anymore I’m so tired and mentally exhausted to even be fully happy and I’m a fuck up I’m throwing a good life away cause I can’t find hope in myself and reasons to even try anymore..I don’t want to live anymore I’m on my last thread ..I just need one more reason..to say goodbye..
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First off. Don’t do it. You actually have a good life. I am literally trapped (emphasis on LITERALLY) you can actually go out and get help. You say you don’t need haep, but you clearly do! You have a good life but want to die? Why is that? clearly something is wrong and you need to talk to a professional to sort through the reason why you are feeling this way. WHY? Maybe it is the influence of the drugs and alchol (I am almost certain it is…) then if you can become clean, and eventually feel happiness without them, wouldn’t it suck if your threw your life away for a momentary impulse? Why not try to get help for your substance abuse, and relearn how to live without them. I am certain you can enjoy your good life once you seek help and support from friends and family. Don’t throw a good thing away. Don’t throw this gift of life away, please. I would give anything to have a good life. I have gone through a miserable (u couldn’t even imagine how bad) existence just with the hope that someday I will be helped, and that one day i can live a good life. Please rethink this. You say you don’t have a reason to live, find yourself a reason. Help others like I am helping them too. That is my reason for the moment…
hey anon. please see that inside you is someone who does deserve to live. You have worth and deserve to live your life to your full possibility. Do not give up. Do not give in. Give it one more chance. Go to sleep for tonight, and try to get help tomorrow. Please, if you have no reason to do it for you, your friends, your family (who love you immensely and will be brocken without you) please do it for me? I have a really horrible life. Ever read or seen the movie Cinderella? That is my life. Except I can’t leave the house. If you, with a good life, can kill yourself, what does that say to other individuals that REALLY have it bad? should we kill ourselves? huh? DO NOT do it for us.. Give US HOPE. please. You living will inspire us to live, also… Please don’t do it, and respond back here. We can help u here… there are so many caring people… Please?