I’m really tired. I don’t know why I’m still here. I want to be erased, not dead. I want the memory of myself forgotten, not just lost. I know I don’t deserve this. I’ve wasted so much in life with sex and secrets. I want to go back and change those. But could I? Fucking no.
I think I should overdose myself with those sleeping pills, it’s an appealing idea, especially now.
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i tried overdosing on advil… i could do it… tho now I’m in a bit of pain.. it should go away.. but please don’t take your life. i know its hard.. but you must of something to live for. i know its really really hard but sometimes try to think positive. my counsellor suggested this a while ago… and its still harder then anything
Thanks. I needed that. Positive thoughts, like a mantra right now.
I really want to go to sessions or something. I think I have manic depression and bipolar disorder. My mum doesn’t care. She’s just blatantly ignoring it. She wants to live in this perfect world. I say bullshit. I need help.
i am manic depression. the highs are fun. but the lows really suck and i hate it so much. just wish that for once i could be normal or something. and what about a school counsellor?
i have*
Oh, that woman? She’s too snobby for her own good. She has these obsessions with rich people. She’s nice and all, but I still don’t know why she’s there. She likes personal life, leeches stories from us like a vampire high on blood.
I want to be normal, too. But we just have to accept it. I still tell myself there’s a good reason behind why I’m like this. I can’t find it, I’m fooling myself. I’m fooling everyone.
If u overdose on this one over da counter med. thats small and the pills are hot pink, then u will see weird shit. lol I did it last year. but then I wanted to throw up and still do whenever I have to take a pill like an allergy pill. So I guess thats both good and bad. But I know how you feel about wanting to be erased in every possible way. I’ve been feeling that way for about 2 weeks now. And a lot of of I’m sure would love to go back and change things that we’ve done, but of course we can’t. So instead we have to figure out how to learn from our mistakes and we also have to figure out what to do next. Life is just a pain in da ass that way. But hey ya gotta do what ya can ta enjoy it.
maybe just go up to your mom and tell her you want to get help? and if she says you don’t need it, tell you u want it and u do need it. I’m not saying it will work but its worth a try
Haha, exactly. With all these things passing through me right now, I feel tired and emotionally unstable. I’m afraid to touch the pills. I’ve heard of numb, void and shitty feelings. Thanks for the warning, but the pills are just there, on the counter. So fucking close.
My life is pointless, though. I can’t do anything when I’m like this. I only ruin things and rekindle old fights.
Rawrimaturtle, I’ll give it another shot. This time with my fingers crossed. She’s not a bad person. She just wants a happy family. But apparently, she’s living in glass houses.