Have you ever fallen for someone you’ve never met? By this, I mean someone you constantly talk to over skype or the internet of some sort?
If you haven’t, then you don’t know the kind of pain i’m going through.
It’s pure emotional attachment, which is the worst when it feels like you’re getting pushed away, like you’re not good enough.
My feelings exactly. And I can’t sleep now because of it, instead, I sit here doing the worst.
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Don’t be fooled. Lucy4 is deffinately a guy.
I sort of know what you mean though but that was not my intention. It was more being rejected when you had nothing to be rejected about. You know what I mean. I just keep conversation to a minimum these days.
I didn’t cry or anything because I’m a guy and I don’t have feelings. There is a piece of ice where my heart used to be, what next, a pickled onion where my brain is. I mean kick a man when he’s down.
@duke. Get over it. Could have been much much worse… like a tranny in a bar…
@supernova, I understand what you’re going through but I don’t think it’s healthy… like, you never know where you stand in the world of cyberspce. So I encourage you to find a flesh and blood companion. We are physical beings after all.
One Day
I never had a problem with it. More confusion than anything else. I just thought it was an appropriate time to mention it in the context of this post.
@duke – appropriate? I thought you were joking. Unless you propose lucy is some kind of sexually confused predator, preying on SP to further confuse and distort the poor twisted boys and men who frequent this place? Are you still harbouring feelings of confusion over being (unintentionally) seduced by a man? Is this why this incident is still at the forefront of your mind when someone comments about love? Are you questioning your sexual identity?
Is this thread making anyone else uncomfortable? Or is it just me?
I know it’s not healthy. It’s the last thing that’s healthy. Last y’know, “flesh and blood companion” relationship didn’t turn out too well. I’m aware I don’t know what kind of things you’ve been put through. But if you resided where I live, you’d understand why I turn to the internet for any source of happiness =P as sad as that is, I can’t help it. I hate everything about my life where I am. Nothing worth living for I just need either out of this city, or to start a new life.
^ I guess my bad for even posting this awkward topic then, haha.
You see, there are people who have had worse experiences. Imagine that guy you were talking to, wasn’t really a guy at all, but an alien from outer space with the sole mission of infiltrating SP buy posing as a girl.
Me and said person have had many conversations since and it was actually quite funny. Maybe it was fate, just so I could tell you about it now and cheer you up.
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That definitely did make me crack a smile. Thanks =)
@supernova, I get it. my last… 3 flesh and blood relationships were pretty horriffic. In same ways, it’s justifiable, to hide behind the curtain of cyberspace. As long as you are aware, that is what you’re doing – hiding. I know that doesn’t change the intensity of your feelings, but you can try. Anyway, leaving your town might be feasible… nothing like a fresh start to turn over a new leaf or rehash an old metaphor.
@duke that would be really bad. because I would hope that a higher intelligence has much better things to do than fuel sexually awkward threads on SP…
I’m not an alien and this is not sexual, is it? What do people do on skype? I don’t even know what that is. In fact I don’t know anything. I’m just learning from everyone else. It’s not my fault, I’ve been corrupted.
Relationships suck. I’ve never really looked at it like that, no one has really ever called it “hiding” until now. Which makes a lot of sense, I totally am =/ Out of fear of being hurt, and look what happens. Leaving my town as soon as I can, yes. Fortunately I only have a year left of school, and i’m planning on going to a far away university.
If you go to university make sure you pick a subject you enjoy. I wish I had done, I don’t know, something artistic instead. I probably should have got stoned more at school though.
@ One day no not at all. Lucy4 did not do anything it was just me being stupid and misinterpreting the name. You people are so sensitive. A guy try’s to cheer someone up and he’s made out to be a jerk, when he’s depressed he’s attention seeking, can’t win with people. Maybe blowing our brains out is best. I just don’t know.
@supernova, sounds like a great plan. I did the same – finished school and went to a uni on the other side of the country. It worked out great! hopefully you’ll meet a flesh and blood person that you won’t feel the need to hide your imperfections from (and that is how internet is seductive… its so easy to hide our flaws, isn’t it?)
@duke, you’re going off on one. I’m just foolin’ you know? chill. Nothing I say should ever be taken too seriously. You wouldn’t accept street directions from a blind guy right? It’s like that.