Everything hurts too much, especially my heart. My girlfriend self injures (as do I) and has told me that she won’t even try to stop. It’s tearing me to bits. I need to go to a place where I feel nothing. Feeling has become too troublesome for me. I’m scared to death of facing my attacker in court. He will kill me with his eyes.
I have everything set up. I have my note. But as usual I’m too scared to do it.
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my best friend used to cut,she had a really hard time with it. she said it was the only way that she knew how to release her emotions,because she didn’t know how to get them out in a healthy way. it was really hard for awhile-she was always torn because she did want to quit sometimes,and other times it was too scary to think of giving it up. i would just tell you to hang in there and let your girlfriend know how much you love her and how much it hurts you to know she’s hurting. are you going to try and get help for yourself? maybe if she sees that you can do it she’ll be more inclined to try. i’m sorry about what happened to you-whatever it was.:( but please don’t give up on your life! i was abused,and i could’ve ended my life from all that pain,but i decided i’m not going to let my abuser take anymore from me. please don’t give up. i’m here for you always and so are so many other people.
You must live to confront your attacker. Be strong my friend. You don’t want to die. You can do it, you can face him. It is a brave and heroic thing to do.
I wish nothing but the best for you. I hope you can find it in you to be strong and stay strong. my boyfriend is also suicidal and we promised eachother we wont leave one another in this world alone. I know its hard dealing with the way you are as it is but dealing with the one you care about too is just insanity. Take care and be strong