Ok, so this thing called reality that I’m in right now, the reality that used to be completely solid. It doesn’t exist. None of this is real. I will drag my knuckles across concrete walls to try and make a connection. Nothing. I am so close to my dream I can taste it, but I know I will fail and then there will be nothing else and reality will completely cease to exist and I won’t stop screaming.
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There is little to be gained from separating fantasy and reality. There will come a time on earth when it becomes difficult to extract meaning from anything at all. When that occurs, we will all have lost the only thing that was ever of any value. I have been unable to find the value in either life or death. It seems that the two things do not contradict one another. It is satisfying to know that there will be no winners and equality will prevail.
WOW, what a ride. You know this life is strange. Is it just a long dream/nightmare? Who really knows? Somethimes I wish it was a dream, dealing with a loss of a brother and friend, the passing of my dog or anything that is hurtfull. I have to admit that I hope that my wife and family are real. I love them with all my heart. I have to realize that with every failure comes growth, with every loss comes life. As to the question of dream or reality…. I hope it is both. I will admit that I have tried to take my own life before and I still think about it time to time. I just dont know if I want to put the poeple I love and care for through the pain. I know when my time comes to leave this life I am ready and not scared at all. If this life is a dream, I hope that when I wake the world will be brighter and better for me and for you.
I got no advice. Just… your username reminded me of a song that goes,
“Too long have we skulked like drifters
In the cities of the neon sun
Vagabond dogs and graveyard shifters
Mona Lisa’s where the paint has run
I miss our glorious past
Our nightly flights on fear dependent
Like phantoms in the eaves for Miss Christine
When the song bird broke her neckâ€
Throwing it out there, I guess. Sorry you’re in a dark place.