Things will always get better.

It’s been basically a year now. Since I was on this site. I’ve heard many stories of loss and divorce from so many people. Yet none of them seemed to hurt as much as I felt just a year ago. In a year everything can change in a heartbeat. Sometimes for the better. Sometimes maybe not. But in the end change is a matter of life and you can’t shy away from it. If right now you are feeling desperate or in despair. Just think of it as a tunnel. I know you’ve heard of it before. Or you’re saying to yourself but you don’t know how I feel. You can only show what YOU feel. Which is truth of course. I can’t make life go in my direction. If I could I would do everything in my power to help everyone in dire situations that really need it. But that is impossible. The only way to beat this never ending tunnel of darkness is to bring a flashlight, or find a way around it. If all you can think about is death and how YOU don’t matter that is not true. Everyone has a reason to be in this world. No matter what you look like. Looks don’t always matter. What really matters is how you look at life and the way you look at yourself. Starting off by being thankful you were put in this world in the first place. But if you’ve ever felt like you don’t deserve to be in this world. Don’t be EVERYONE deserves a right into the world. If you didn’t deserve it YOU wouldn’t be here in the  first place. If I could come over there and make you feel better I would. But I can’t because sometimes life throws you learning curves which pave the way for you to learn from your mistakes. But most importantly know what is wrong and what is right. Although you are probably thinking about all the loss that you have gone through I can’t even imagine the pain you are going through right now. Just remember that there is always at least someone out there who really cares about you. If you left they would cry. Always remember the most important rule to being a successful person:

1: Have confidence! (Who cares what others think. You’re original in every single way! Just the way you are is the only way you can be don’t act like someone your not. If you have some good friends they are most likely friends with you because of your personality! Think good thoughts and you will feel better) 🙂

But key to all this is how you treat yourself. Think of yourself as having a relationship WITH yourself. I know sounds ridiculous but if you think about it. It makes sense. If you were dating yourself what would you treat your partner like. Would you cut them. I’d hope not. Would you hope they would die. I don’t think so. No life is worthless so much that they must die! If it was you wouldn’t be here. If right now you feel like killing yourself push the negative thoughts behind you and learn from them but first think. THINK. Think about what makes you a lovable person, think about the people who care about you, think about the people who have impacted your life in a good way, think about all the little things that make you smile, think of things that make you feel like going awww. If none of this thinking works i suggest looking up cute cat pictures on google 😛 I hope you realize that you’re not worthless because even though I don’t know you, I’d love to meet you and  i’m sure the people you will meet in the future will love you. But if we do meet I bet you’d be amazing. 🙂

Sincerely the 14 year old

Julian/ jamingjuls