This is my first time posting. But I am feeling kinda suicidal right now. I was on medication for like 7 years, I dunno I guess I was just naturally depressed since a very young age, but now it’s been 6 months that I’m off it. I honestly feel like killing myself now, cuz I can’t feel shit in my heart.. I have a girl and there’s lots of people and friends that really care about me.. But nonetheless I don’t feel much.. My daily schedule is like a bit fucked, try to keep busy but not much going on.. Just waiting to go off to school in a couple of months but really.. I don’t know.. it’s pretty far.. but having moved around so much I can’t say my “life” is as stable as it is in my “hometown” as it will hopefully be over there.. life’s tough eh? Alright loads of people are starving and stuff.. but sometimes depression’s like that.. so bored of it.. Have a good night everyone
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Depression is rough, I hate it. I read other stories on this site and they make me angry. Some of these people seem so lame, and wimpy… they just whine about stuff but then i get to yours and here you are actually trying. I try too… I do EVERYTHING i can to keep my mood up, to succeed, to be pretty and “normal” whatever that is, and in the end it’s like ….
Why am i doing this again? I think maybe going to a fresh start will hold a lot of opportunity for you, it will allow you to reset and redesign yourself. Once that’s in place you can maintain your close relationships at home, and you never know what Life will bring, You might find something that sparks something inside you that just shines so brightly that it dulls whatever darkness you are fighting.
@g4m3r … take it easy … a lot of the posters around here are just kids – ,any are in tough situations that they have no control over … calling them names is not helpful
I hope you find what you need, but hopefully not at the expense of others here
fair dawg
its not name calling, its telling them how it is.. ok I am fair, i am allowed to speak my mind, and sometimes all they need is someone to tell them the truth. Tough love works and it is motivating. if you are going to be sappy about it and allow them to go deeper and deeper and deeper in there head, WO a reality check, then no wonder they will off themselves. LIKE are you reading the same stuff I am? I had a very VERY hard up bringing, and i have been where most of them are. WHAT kept my ass alive was people not sugar coating the truth. THIS emo era has ended. it’s been replaced with XTC taking raverchildren and that is what they are growing up in. HOW do you know that i myself am old? you don’t. You need to take people on here seriously. I would seriously like to see more honesty and more straight shooting then.. AW, i feel your pain. WE all feel pain. either you can smarten up and change it, or die…. like those are the options and dont monitor me.. who are you , dawg?
Their head* … also, we are all facing the same out.
Also, dude.. my response to this post is very appropriate.
maybe you should check yourself instead of me.
a drama queen that complains about teenagers being whiny .. great
@G4M3r9irl i don’t think he was trying to attack you,and i’m not either,but i see his point. i’ve read posts where you’ve told people they were lame,and stupid. someone who is 12 years old and going through a rough time doesn’t need that.some people have a tough upbringing(you said you did too) and all they want is someone to care about them because they aren’t getting that at home. if caring seems sappy,that’s your opinion. you can be honest and direct without using words like wimpy and stupid,can’t you? i think being honest is great,if it’s constructive.
Who am I? I’m no one … just dawg
Your response is appropriate … with the exception of the “some people are lame and wimpy … ” comment … it was unnecessary … i concede that I would only wish to have the “problems” that some here think are so dire … but that doesn’t change the fact that THEY think their situation is severe. You can be free, tough and stark without the “colorful” adjectives that will only stigmatize those who are on the fence
Just asking for a little compassion … get to know the folks before judging them
random dawg
You might be DAWG, but you are NOT Nate Dawg, the regulator and I will brush you off bc you mean that little to me. 🙂 I don’t need a daddy, so stfu.
@g4m; Don’t worry about it. People who call it as they see it often get labeled “abrasive.” Trust me I speak from experience. Sharing your honest opinion with others doesn’t always help them because what works for you might not work for them.
I like people who aren’t fake and you seem like that type. ~Peace
gamer is probably a scorpio .. being involved in drama is like having sex to her
truthbetold is probably a midget with self-esteem issues, bc no one wants to play with midgets 😉 I like your little obsession with me, does it make you feel big?
Where did I ever suggest I was this “nate dawg regulator”? I have no clue what that is – nor do I care … for someone who “means so little” to you … why are you so defensive and combative? … and sorry, I am not “offering” to be your “daddy”
“Better to be thought of as a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt” – I heard that somewhere
@Lucy – nothing wrong with being abrasive … being callous and uncaring, that’s another story
lame, wimpy and NOT G4M-daddy dawg
Dawg, your mind is so closed.. no wonder you are on this site for friends.
@Dawg; Gotcha. Agreed, I see your point. (Back to lurk mode 4 me……)
Well, no doubt, now that you know everything there is to know about me I’m sure now you’ll ignore me to prove “how little I mean to you” … right?
asking dawg
just gonna say this. I AGREE WITH DAWG AND ELLACHRISTINA WHOLEHEARTEDLY!!!
wat the hell i came in thinking wow 17 comments.. and I see ppl fighting over their opinions.. that’s kinda strange.. but i appreciate the help none the less.. coming off medication i lost a lot of my stride..
I was all good a while back but then i went out a lot.. did some drugs, drank.. and I think that killed my ability to function more.. and I mean function socially.. which is something I need when I feel this alone.. I’m older and I need to sort it out.. I need to just make that push and be in a social environment and learn to socialize and find myself again..
but hey I agree with you both.. but even though these kids seem whiny.. depression is real and you can’t blame them.. yes it seems a bit wimpy.. but they’re KIDS.. who need proper support and guidance.. they’re in pain.. and they don’t understand it but what I love is that they realize it now.. sooner than later..
god knows if i had that support when I was younger (I was depressed and didn’t even know it!!) I’d be much much much better off.. these are kids man.. love to u all!
also if anyone has experience with coming off medication do let me know! xo!
btw G4M3r9irl thanks for ur kind words and advice! haha maybe ur right.. I’m leaving off to school in the states actually.. I’m in asia at the moment and I don’t think I relate to people here as much as I do there.. I was brought up in Western environments more than I was asian ones.. ppl here are really close-minded and judge 1000x faster.. which doesn’t makes things easier! fucking assholes really I hate some ppl here.. lack of education and culture really..
But ya.. good luck w ur schtuffs! try ta have some fun in da process too 🙂
@Helloiamdepressive – my apologies – didn’t mean to hijack your post.
dawg
its okay man 🙂