Dad

You let it happen! You stood by and let her say and do whatever she wanted if its any wonder why im messed up I only look to who raised me. You never stood up to her or said anything. When I needed you the most to be a father you made your choice clearly you supported her when I needed you the most! How can one man be so different in front of people and be a whole other person when there’s no one around. I know you can’t protect me from everything but you could have protected me from her! From letting it all get this far. I throw up every day I hate myself I can’t even look in the mirror anymore I feel like I’m walking around on edge always trying not to burst into tears because I know at any second ill break and fall apart. I’ve been on a ledge for too many years I don’t even think I can get down. The only safe place in the world and you ruined it for me! I don’t know why it’s a shock that Im angry with you that I have issues with the two of you! I just wish for once you could have been a dad.