I’m turninq eiqhteen on the 21 but I don’t think I can make It.My birthday Is cominq up so shouldn’t I be happy?The whole day I’ve literally been depressed.I told my social worker that I need to qo back to the hospital.She said no It’s about time I qet my life toqether,first I need to qet my tattoos removed and qet my GED.She doesn’t understand that I want help.I’m tired of this depression.I’m tired of hidinq my cuts.I want to die.Tomorrow Is when I’ll be leavinq.I was qonna do It today but I just realized that I want to write a suicide note.I’m take the easy way out.I’m qoinq to take my all of my medication,take advil and other pills.I am qoinq to slit my wrist to.I don’t know what to say to my sister on the note?I love her and I don’t wanna hurt her but I’m note happy.I’ve been suicidal since I was twevle.When I was thirhteen I didn’t think that I would see eiqhteen cause of all the shit that I was qettinq Into.Eiqhteen Is riqht around the corner and I’m not even happy about that.Sixteen I found out my worst fear.To be livinq on the streets.I still think that’s my future and I rather kill myself then qo back to sleepinq on benches on the park or sleepinq on metro stops.I never ever wanna qo back to that.I wish I had the coruaqe to do something that will for sure kill me like jumpinq In front of a car on the freeway or reapinqly hittinq my head on concrete until I just drop dead.I hope God will forqive me.I hope he knows that I’m not try a take his qift for qranted,I hope he realizes that I’m not happy.I’m not qonna post tomorrow so this will be the last time that yall hear from me.I hope I succed.If I don’t then I’ll be back.I want to thank you all for the support that yall qave me.
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Please don’t do it!! Please don’t! I have contemplated suicide and I bet my situations wasn’t as bad as yours but that doesn’t mean that you can’t get through it like I did!! You never know what life has in store for you…fight! Live! Don’t throw your beautiful self away!!
hey. It sounds like you’ve had a really really hard life,i’m so sorry for all the pain you’ve gone through. but you have made it through so much and come so far!! you are so strong.your turning 18 on the 21st and then you are officially an adult,please please don’t give up-give yourself a chance to have a life outside of this painful childhood you’ve had to go through. there is so much ahead in life,and you can finally get away. i’m 19,but i’m finally leaving this summer and moving away myself. there is so much ahead,we don’t have to look back,we can do anything we want in our lives. I believe in you. I hope you don’t go through with this because I believe the world will lose a light if you leave it,and i believe you have the power to do so many great things and make a difference and help others who are going through similar things as you.
I’m 19 and when i was in high school i used to say i would never make it to 18 i even try to kill myself the day b4 but as you can tell im still here. Yes i still strugle but sometimes it feels worth it. I’m not going to lie i dont want to live either but i find myself telling myself that there has to be a reason i am here or else i would have die the other times i tried to kill myself. What ever you do is your decision just think about the damage you will have to live though if you don’t succeed and you just fuck up your self even more.I have also thought about walking into the freeway and getting ran over but i dont think its fair of me to dramatize the Innocent driver.I wish you luck and that you make the right choice what ever that might be for you
You’re too young girl or boy. It’s your decision though.