I’m 15 and my life is over. I feel insane. I can’t really feel happiness anymore. I know it’s there, but it’s like a butterfly with crumpled wings. It will die. Just like me. I just feel violent and terrified like a weasel trapped in a wire cage. I just wanna fight my way out of this life, but there’s no one to fight but myself. So all I really want to do right now is hang myself.
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Utilize that fighting spirit — channel it towards something productive. Don’t direct it at yourself. You have your art. Btw I like the picture. That’s the kind of conversation that went on in my head 6 years ago.
That’s quite some mess you express
I’m schizophrenic and I have always had quite some mess in my mind.
Sometimes it has been quite like the above where everthing was completely unordered running through my mind – like sunlight, sounds, emotions, words, and all in one big pile and nothing of it made sense. But at other times things has been working very well.
And as Gaara says you have your fighting spirit. Maybe you just need some help to channel it in some direction.
btw do you know deviantart? http://www.deviantart.com/
yeah my dA is artiststallion.deviantart.com if you want it. I guess I’m okayish now, just emotionally drained