Just felt the need to type.

It’s been a while since I ranted on here. No I haven’t really been doing better. I’ve just been avoiding it.
Life’s hard, no one around me understands it therefor I never have anyone to talk to about it. If I were to try to tell my “best friend” about it, she would turn it around about how bad her life is. She doesn’t get it. My daily routine is go to school – get told how much I suck at every subject – return home, and be super lonely – sleep for around 4 hours and repeat. It’s not healthy, and is definitely not the way I saw myself being when I was younger.  I know I know, i’m “only 16 i’m still young” but I’ve been depressed for 3 years and it hasn’t gotten better. Worse, if anything. That’s 3 years worth of cutting, 3 years of taking excessive t3’s whenever I have headaches, and 3 years of taking as many painkillers and sleeping pills I can until I pass out at nights when I can’t fall asleep. I know it’s not that bad for you, but it’s still not something I should be doing daily. The hardest part for me is being home. I feel empty, because I have nothing to look forward to.  No-one waiting to talk to me as soon as I get home. There’s just no feeling of being needed. So i’m stuck in a continuous loop of being sad and lonely, with nothing better to do than sit here and contemplate my options on life and think of everything that’s went wrong.