tired

Im not sure how much longer i can keep doing this.  Im tired of my life and tired of trying.  I feel like i spend so much time and energy not picking up new habits and self destructive behaviors that i dont have any energy or will to stop the ones i have.  My therapist is upset with me because i cant seem to stop the behaviors i have.  Its not that im not trying, i just am trying to not do new things, that i cant help but do the same old things.