Too much rejection

The day i felt it seems to turn to endless torture , that cant stop, they said to me no twice and i cant breath afterwords, i fucked up my life i was given second choice but i lost it , pain the only one i have now . while my dream is trying to get recovering from stroke . Mu dream is floating far way she is trying say that she will never come back, but i am running to catch her to bring her to life no it s too late , pills simple doesnt help no more i am afraid of death i know that there is nothing after it
cold nights grey sky i just wanna die .
could you belive the god is dead
he was forgtonen me betrayed ,
the wind is singing sad song .
i have to stop it was too long
too long to wait so fast to break
i feel under huge earthquake
sleep sleep sleep forget
it was no this and no that