warning signs

I have so many of the warning signs of suicide it’s not funny.
Severe depression (always there, but worse now),
sudden reckless behavior (I had sex with a complete stranger),
sudden change in appearance (I dyed my hair blue)
inability to sleep
severe anxiety
social isolation
impulsive actions (I just got 65 stitches)
researching suicide on the internet
I feel like a helpless, hopeless burden, I have no reason to live. The only reason I have for not killing myself is that I need to repent from my reckless, impulsive sexual behavior.

If anyone was paying attention they would be very worried….
….but they’re not.