Well I always say or do the wrong thing. I’m different and people don’t like it. My boyfriend got mad at me today. It was an accident, but I still felt real bad, I think he noticed because he said he was sorry and he shouldn’t have gotten mad. I’ve ruined so many friendships. And I don’t want help, because the one friend i told about my suicide thoughts told his parents, who told my parents and some other church leaders,(of whom i dislike) It’s not their business. It’s really hard. I have my mask on. But I’ve been giving hints. Nobody understands. And the people who I thought i could trust with this, ruined my life. They told everybody. The best things in my life only last for awhile. It’s just getting hard to take it all. I’m bullied, not physically, but verbally. Words hurt, and after hearing them over and over again, I’m starting to believe them. Maybe I’m just better off dead.
You’re only human you can’t expect to be the perfect friend…
It’s okay you and him both just have to communicate s:
You need to talk to someone you need to vent, you really need it
You aren’t better off dead you would be missed.
Wow. Fallenangel you sound so much like myself. I tell myself all the time that I would be missed for like 2 seconds and tehn everything would get back to normal. And teh whole church thing I know exactly! I am not in church anymore but am forced to go every service. Ugh my whole church found out about whats going on with me and I hate it!
Same with me, I can’t go to my fun class, and I avoid all of the leaders. I know they want to help. But they can’t, my mom forces me to go sometimes. I wear hoodies and sweatpants. I’m not sure who would miss me. I just wish the bullying would stop, nobody would care if i was gone. And there’s nothing adults will do except get in your business and feed you lies and empty words.
when i go to church i get bullied, and i too believe that if i die i might be missed for a second at most a day and everyone will continue on with their lives…but with a smile on their face that im gone.
Yeah thats how I feel. Ha thats how they act already. They don’t care that I’m suicidal anymore. At first it seemed like they did and now who cares.
At church people seem to judge me. They don’t approve that I don’t care anymore or that I cut my hair or don’t pray. They just seem annoyed with me almost.
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Yes what happened? :c
You need a friend?
Hey what’s wrong? When I feel that way I always wish I had a friend to talk to….so I’m here to talk to.
Well I always say or do the wrong thing. I’m different and people don’t like it. My boyfriend got mad at me today. It was an accident, but I still felt real bad, I think he noticed because he said he was sorry and he shouldn’t have gotten mad. I’ve ruined so many friendships. And I don’t want help, because the one friend i told about my suicide thoughts told his parents, who told my parents and some other church leaders,(of whom i dislike) It’s not their business. It’s really hard. I have my mask on. But I’ve been giving hints. Nobody understands. And the people who I thought i could trust with this, ruined my life. They told everybody. The best things in my life only last for awhile. It’s just getting hard to take it all. I’m bullied, not physically, but verbally. Words hurt, and after hearing them over and over again, I’m starting to believe them. Maybe I’m just better off dead.
You’re only human you can’t expect to be the perfect friend…
It’s okay you and him both just have to communicate s:
You need to talk to someone you need to vent, you really need it
You aren’t better off dead you would be missed.
I don’t know who would miss me. Maybe a few tears would be shed, but they would soon get over it.
…you would be missed :/
Don’t attack yourself so much you are not a bad person trust me…
u dont seem bad…and I know bad people..
Wow. Fallenangel you sound so much like myself. I tell myself all the time that I would be missed for like 2 seconds and tehn everything would get back to normal. And teh whole church thing I know exactly! I am not in church anymore but am forced to go every service. Ugh my whole church found out about whats going on with me and I hate it!
Same with me, I can’t go to my fun class, and I avoid all of the leaders. I know they want to help. But they can’t, my mom forces me to go sometimes. I wear hoodies and sweatpants. I’m not sure who would miss me. I just wish the bullying would stop, nobody would care if i was gone. And there’s nothing adults will do except get in your business and feed you lies and empty words.
when i go to church i get bullied, and i too believe that if i die i might be missed for a second at most a day and everyone will continue on with their lives…but with a smile on their face that im gone.
Yeah thats how I feel. Ha thats how they act already. They don’t care that I’m suicidal anymore. At first it seemed like they did and now who cares.
At church people seem to judge me. They don’t approve that I don’t care anymore or that I cut my hair or don’t pray. They just seem annoyed with me almost.