I have my blog. But people on there know who i am.. so i need to vent. Here it goes.. I am done with this bull shit. I am trying so hard to stop the hurt.. You know what i honestly want to know when people want to stop my hurt. Because i am right back to were i was in the begging.. I LOVE CUTTTING!! do you fucking people here me.. I love it… so stop making me stop. If i want to stop i will stop!!!. if i want help i will get it.. yesterday i weighed my self i am 141… You know what im going to do, im going to make my self throw up to lose the weight. And im going to laugh at all you guys who think i am fine. Yeah you call me skinny how about you look at me again… I am not skinny, i desrive this pain.. And when i kill my self you guys will remember me.. Even if it comes to the fact that i hurt people doing this… Can you beleive so many of us cry every day and want to kill are selfs!! god damn it… are you kidding people… I want to stop all your hurt but i cant !! this is hurting me knwing so many of you are hurting… Please let me help you.. I want to help you more then help my self… i hope that makes sense….
i need help….
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Some idiots do hurt you as long as you care about their needless ideas. It’s not important whether you are overweight or not (being skinny is not so good anyway, whenever I see one, I think like their legs are gonna break suddenly), if you have a brain and use it, it’s enough to be considered a “real human”.
Hold on to life and begin losing weight slowly, and do it for your health, not beauty. Trust me, being skinny is not the same as being beautiful.
Wouldn’t it be good to see yourself and say: “I’m proud of myself!” ?
Yeah, i would love to say i am proud of my self… But what do i do… I cant figure out if i ever do anything right… I mean i can act all pretty and happy on the outside.. But the inside i am the girl who wants to cut her self just because… I guess idk how to be anymore
It’s good to see a familiar face but not to hear you have had a setback. People always say I should quit smoking and I want to but I also like it so I think why should I. But I hate myself for good reasons. You shouldn’t hate yourself because you could not be any thiner, more beautiful or intelligent than you are already. Some dude who calls himself ‘The Guardian’ wrote a post on here about cutting which you might want to read. Also I’ve read about it and some people find holding ice helpful because of the pain, which is obviously better than causing a scar.
Whats brought this about anyway?
Thats a good question.. I have no clue… Just it came to be.. And now im here any advise
Some dude says thanks Duke.
Hi Kiddo – I’ve missed your beautiful smiling face around here 🙂
Thick, thin, short tall … these are just adjectives … some like one thing others like something totally different and completely opposite … you are you … and you have to live with you … so you have to be happy with you … when you are happy with you … what anyone else thinks doesn’t matter one f-ing bit. But I can tell you, when you feel happy with you and feel beautiful about you … the people that matter will see it too.
ugly dawg
Ugly huh.. Are you dealing with how you look to. And thanks… ive missed venting to be honest.. And i know your right.. a new day brings a new smile or a new sad face… I think my mind found out that my smiles were giving up.. I dont know what to do.. i guess i love being me… but i love seeing blood. And i know you cant go stab someone.. So i guess idkk… Trying and keeping my head up…. I got a job.. so i am hoping that will help me with some of this stuff… But how are you….havent heard from you.. hope everything is doing okay.. OH and i got a blog now.. its reallly coool… ANd i have a video on there…
http://youhavethestrength.blogspot.com/
Advice! I’m not really the best advice person. I think girls who have been through it are probably the best people to advise.
It might be triggered by anxiety, when you become distressed. Try and find ways to deal with your emotions without cutting. If it’s frustration then there must be other ways to let it out. Don’t let anyone hurt or upset you. There must be other ways of inflicting that sensation without leaving a scar. People have mentioned elastic bands. The most effective prevention seems to be tying your arms behind your back. Although, that might be difficult.
Great blog. Very proud of you.
thankkks… it would be cool if i could get people to keep looking… idk thoughh but hey thank you
Nice Blog Ang. 🙂
I’m following it now … as to your question abut me dealing with how I look … no … at my age, I couldn’t give two shits … I simply … am … I leave it to others to waste time and energy worrying about how I “look” … I’m happy to be me – I’m sure it could be better but it could also be worse so I’m happy with being relatively healthy and functional.
I’m proud of you that you’re moving forward and working … that’s awesome 🙂
Peace and love to you Princess
proud dawg
Thanks(:
well keep your head up…..
Emil me sometime… I would like to know how everything is….
getting there… schneiderang