Any ideas?

After my suicidal thoughts,well I feel happier now and feel like I should somehow put that experience to use. I mean these charities I have looked at usually involve selling things, and theres no way I can do that. Others well dont provide me any feeling of helping others. I mean I would be okay with just hiding and doing art by myself, but I just need a way to put this experience to use and cant find a way to do so. So any advice?