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by NumbExhaustion 5/14/2018

written by NumbExhaustion

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Ok, so this is really weird but, like, I really miss being able to cry. Like I started meds about 7 months ago and since then, I’ve been unable to have a really good cry regularly. It feels like I’m on the edge of a breakdown and I really hate this feeling. Like, I kinda want to go back to last year when I was crying almost every day because at least then I had some way of releasing whatever I was feeling. Like, now my only way of releasing my emotions when I can’t draw or write is through self harm but even that […]

5/14/2018 4 comments

I just need to be loved

by Chantal97 2/1/2017

written by Chantal97

I don’t know of I actually wanna die or not, but lately I’ve been feeling like attempting suicide, only so others can show their love to me. I imagine overdosing or trying to cut my wrists and one of my closest friends or a guy/girl I like finding me just before I die. I imagine them crying about me, wishing I don’t die, and these thoughts give me a strange kind of warm feeling. I feel the urge to hurt myself just so that other can care for me. I feel the urge to die just so that others cry about me. I don’t want […]

2/1/2017 0 comment

I wrote this on the morning of September 29th.

by Shootmeup 10/1/2016

written by Shootmeup

Junk fucked grunge and grime and became punk in time followed by this dope laced rhyme is blue lips and rolled back eyes with a rope tied tight you might find the right side of life when every body is done crying at your funeral they go back home and do the same thing as you but they don’t understand the point of view you had and why you choose to tie ropes to rocks and throw those hopes over the beam tied real tight so you could kick the chair from under your feet in the same place under that bridge you used […]

10/1/2016 4 comments

I Hate Myself

by A Bullet Through My Head For The Words I Fail To Say 1/29/2016

written by A Bullet Through My Head For The Words I Fail To Say

I hate myself. I really don’t know how much longer I can hold out. I don’t believe in myself to make it through 2016. I find new things to hate about myself everyday and I can’t sleep without having nightmares. I’m mentally and emotionally drained 24/7. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live either. I think of killing myself every hour of everyday because I just can’t do it anymore and it just seems so much better than how I am now. If I just ended everything, I wouldn’t feel, I couldn’t and all the pain would end. I know that there […]

1/29/2016 8 comments

Goodbye

by YouKnowWhat 12/3/2015

written by YouKnowWhat

It took a lot of planning. A lot of planning. There are things I think I’d miss, too. Things I’ll never get to do. But in the end, they say it’s the journey, not the destination. It makes sense, because the journey would be life. And the destination would be death.

So, I guess I should have started this way, but Dear Random People:

It’s so much easier to write a suicide note when you pretend it’s not to the people I’m going to hurt. And honestly, I’m really, really sorry from the bottom of my heart (which will be not be beating soon if all goes as planned). There’s […]

12/3/2015 10 comments

M’s May

by losthinata23 12/2/2015

written by losthinata23

Its 2015 Before May my cousin still keeps on doing the same dame things to me I wish he would stop which he did around my he came back but with a girl good god yes his stop I thought. But no when his girl wasnt around he would still do the sexual things but this time he whispered in my ear while he forced me to have sex with him and took my v card but he told me “to bad I stool your v card now no guy would want to go out with you or marry you ” when he […]

12/2/2015 10 comments

scared to end my life

by n40m 11/30/2015

written by n40m

11/30/2015 11 comments

Note To Self: Become Perfect Overnight

by IAmPerfect 11/29/2015

written by IAmPerfect

When people look at me, they don’t see me. It’s my fault for hiding and lying and smiling, but sometimes I wish that someone would see me and ask what was wrong.

When people look at me, they see ridiculously high grades, higher than they have. They don’t see how I fall apart every time I look at a math problem, how I always have doubts no matter how well I’m doing, how I constantly worry.

When I say I’m nervous about a hard test, everyone scoffs. They’re usually right t0 – I always pass. They don’t understand that I really am nervous… I’m so stressed that I want to curl up […]

11/29/2015 9 comments

Don’t know what to do

by Namjoon64 11/21/2015

written by Namjoon64

Recently I’ve been thinking about taking my own life. I just feel that I have no place in it and that doesn’t upset me at all, I’ve actually fully accepted this fate because I believe not everyone is cut out for living till the adult years. I’ve thought about suicide a few times in the past but now they’re so strong I don’t really have much control. I always had a feeling something was wrong with me since I was younger.
When I was a toddler my father was in and out of jail, he was alcoholic and was very violent. He […]

11/21/2015 6 comments

Dreams better than reality? Why Dream is better than reality? Why is Dreams better than reality?

by niki 11/19/2015

written by niki

Why Dreams is better than reality?
Why is Dream better than reality?
Why is dreams better than reality? Why dream is better than reality?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality / human’s fantasy is better than reality.

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi / sci fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, MMORPG , Interstellar , The Matrix , Avengers , X-Men , etc etc, they are much more interesting, full […]

11/19/2015 1 comment

When Will The Suffering End? So Very Tired…

by dreamingsucks 11/11/2015

written by dreamingsucks

Dear whom,

Why is it so tiring? Why? I am abjectly sick of living in this world.

My head is consumed with suicidal thoughts. It screams into my ears, screaming for me to throw my body over a bridge, stab myself with a knife, or hang myself. These thoughts are like a sound, a piercing sound, a frequency that I can only hear. It won’t stop unless my depression can disappear. It is booming into my ears. It is so intense! I can’t stand it. So very tired…

I experience so much agony from this tiredness that befallen on me. I am exhausted to the bones. Unfortunately, this […]

11/11/2015 0 comment

Hmmmm

by Misfit27 11/10/2015

written by Misfit27

Well, how to start this… I guess, hello. Hello Suicide Project users. I’m new to this site as I only discovered it a few nights ago. I am deciding to write this post because I have nowhere else to vent, and I feel that if I don’t share this I will go completely mad. I suppose I should preface this by saying that I am extremely sorry if I offend anyone. That is not at all my intention and I hope I don’t annoy anyone. So, here we go.

I’m a 16 (soon to be 17) year old male living in the same small town I […]

11/10/2015 5 comments

Poem for today

by kzn123 10/28/2015

written by kzn123

I’m new to here, so hello… I’ve been feeling down for a while now and alots been going on… I’m sure a lot of you can relate to this poem …

You make me feel so worthless
So depressed and so alone
You make me feel like crying
And cutting deep into the bone

You look at me in solitude
With your evil looking glare
Make me feel so worthless
Like I’m living in despair

I want you to understand
To have some gratitude in there
To feel the emptiness I feel
And the loneliness in the bed we share

Why am I here
What have I done
Will […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

I Don’t Know What to Do Anymore

by Mitzia 10/18/2015

written by Mitzia

It’s been a long time since I was last here. About a year and half, to be exact. I thought I was really getting better but in the last few months, everything seems to be spiraling down again. I’ve read that it’s therapeutic to write about it, so hopefully this will help me.

In July, my boyfriend of seven months, Alex, broke up with me. He was everything I had wanted in a person and I woke up everyday with an overwhelming amount of happiness that I thought the years of suicidal thoughts and depression were finally leaving my mind.

If only I knew how wrong I […]

10/18/2015 1 comment

I wish I wasn’t a failure.

by Zephyr 9/27/2015

written by Zephyr

I am, though. I can’t help it. I can’t help the fact that Im a failure. It’s not like I’ve not tried to put myself out there. I’ve done everything you wanted, Mom, Dad- I just… Nobody wants someone who’s nobody. And they don’t want any bullshit art that this shitty ass fucking 16 year old made. They don’t want dumbass masks I put my hard work into. They don’t even want my paintings! You tell me to put myself out there and then I’ll get people to buy my things. You tell me not to get a real job and just rely on art. […]

9/27/2015 9 comments

You are Loved

by jrmeador94 9/27/2015

written by jrmeador94

I’m still getting through my depression. It’s almost a daily battle here at college, but I’m surviving somehow. I heard this music one day with my therapist, and I couldn’t stop crying.

This song has kept me through some of the hard days. I play it when I fall asleep. I wake up better.

You are Loved (Don’t Give up) by Josh Groban

9/27/2015 3 comments

Horrible day in a while

by plasticflower 9/23/2015

written by plasticflower

Today’s just been horrible.
I always say to myself that I don’t think I could kill myself because of how my family would feel, but today I really couldn’t care less. Not a lot to say, but today I realized something I didn’t realize before
I am definitely, 100% sure that at some point I’ll take my own life.
Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow,
but soon.

-V

9/23/2015 2 comments

My Story

by smilingcrying 9/13/2015

written by smilingcrying

Hi! I’m going to remain anonymous but I’m a 13-year-old bigender person who has never really been happy. I doubt I’ll ever post here again because I have other places to vent (where I’ve posted this, but I feel really bad so I’m gonna write it again. For some reason it makes me feel better), and I prioritize those places. Anyway, here is me.

I was born to my dating high-school-sweethearts mother and father. They lived with my mom’s mother for two years after that before getting an apartment together (with me, of course). They didn’t love each other anymore. My dad says they weren’t even […]

9/13/2015 6 comments

I’m falling apart

by operationmintyhippo 9/13/2015

written by operationmintyhippo

I’m falling apart.

My life is falling apart.

I have been so hopeful.

I’ve been trying so hard.

But I just keep receiving bad things.

Now I keep thinking bad things.

I just want to die.

I can’t do this anymore.

Life is too overwhelming.

I can’t get ahead.

I can’t catch a break.

I can’t do this anymore.

I can’t live like this anymore.

I want to die.

I need to.

Bye SP.

9/13/2015 5 comments

My suicide story

by 4262B 9/13/2015

written by 4262B

All my life I knew something was different about me… Maybe it was how self conscious I became when my parents couldn’t afford to have more than one or two outfits that fit me when I was little. Or maybe it was how hard my mom tried to make my brother and I happy, but my dad always tore her down.. Maybe it was my parents always being to busy to come to any of my school concerts and events? Maybe it was just me? All I know is that through it all, no matter who I have around me, trying to support me.. I […]

9/13/2015 2 comments

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