I may be going to boarding school year after next. It’s this amazing science school in the state, and I REALLY want to go, but I’m also TERRIFIED.
I’m not good enough for my shitty public school, much less this place!
But I want to go so bad. It’s exactly what I want; a way to get the fuck out of here and get started on college before 4 years are up.
But I don’t want to go through going to a new school again. Even if everyone would be new.
But I wanna be a medical examiner; if I have the opportunity to go to a school that specializes in science, shouldn’t I?
It’s giving me so much anxiety. What if I broke down there like I have here and tried to kill myself? Who would save me then? And what would my family do if I offed myself so far away, and they never even had a warning?
I really need input. Ideas on what I should do? I’m just so torn and confused and scared by this whole thing.
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If you REALLY want so, then go and make it; don’t kill that medical examiner in your dreams.
There’s nothing you can’t make as long as you believe 🙂
I wrote a post on here called
the Mentor
Search for it and read it.
You should go to school, but you may need a support system.
One healthy adult in your life can be that person.
Go for it