I broke the promise I made to them, the promise not to cut. I told them and they got mad. I said I had been depressed, I tried explaining the reason…I don’t think they meant to be mad but then I did break the promise.
I told my friend and she then told the guy that I really love what I had done. I had trusted her and she went behind my back. I got a message from him..it said
“—– told me what you done wtf you were happy today i am so disappointed in you.”
Did he really believe I was happy? Did he not see thatÂ I was breaking down inside? He must have because he asked me if I was okay and I almost broke when I said I was ‘okay’. I’m not though! What normal person cuts a butterfly into theirself? or scars the word ‘worthless’ into their arm because of flashbacks?
I need help..my stomach hurts so much. But that Butterfly meant a lot to me, and to him. It was the first thing we saw when weÂ had first talked..he called me his little butterfly girl. He knows that it is our special symbol so why is he angry at me?
I thought he loved me? maybe I was wrong…