Every day is the same. I wake up , ready to fall back to sleep. Back to the darkness of my mind thatswallows me whole, place of peace in a world of hate. No motivation left… Sleep through every class, can’t focus , cant process… Feeling stupid; can’t think. It’s only getting harder, everythings getting worse. Things get to me more everyday. I’m close to my breaking point. Sometimes I wonder what the easiest was is to go.. Would popping a pill bottle worth of tylenol do anything? I feel like im going to go no where in life as it is…
If anything could explain what its like .. i guess this is the best thing i relate to..
“You see that girl? She looks happy right? Telling jokes, smiling, and having a good time and…dieing inside. Shes hurt and tired. Tired of all the drama. Tired of not being good enough and tired of life. But she doesn’t wanna look like shes attention seeking. So she keeps it inside. Act like everything is alright. But cries at night. So everybody thinks she is the happiest person they know. That her life is perfect. If they only knew the truth..♥”
No one will ever know the truth behind the lies.
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People will know the truth if you let them. Scary thought, I know, but if theres ever a place where its safest to do so, you have to know it’s here. <3
I know the feeling. No motivation to do anything, feeling like school is pointless, not being able to focus. But maybe it will get better.
In your first post you mentioned you have a great boyfriend. Couldn’t you talk to him? Maybe he could understand and help you. After all, that’s what he’s there for, right? 🙂
Ya but you’re supposed to be happy in a relatinship, i dont want him to know that even though i tell him “yes , you make me truly happy” that will never be true…. Or at least not anytime soon… I’ve never been a person t talk about my problems, this is why the site is helpful…. It gives you a place to display all those feelings and have no one wh knowsyu, no one who actually sees you on a day to day basis, and sees yu as ‘Happy’ they can’t understand…
i dont know you personally, would it be so terrible to let me see the truth? id give u my email, id just listen and give support… advise if i have any….
just.me.19 brings up a good point, if hes really a great boyfriend, he’ll help you through it