I am very young to be thinking about this… I’m only 13. Even though my life is pretty good (good friends, loving family) I can’t help but feel SO DEPRESSED. This is my first year of middle school, and my grades are average. My parents are divorced. I’m not sure what is happening, but I used to be so happy. Now I find it so hard to smile. I’m trying… I want to be happy. But things just keep piling on and lately I’ve just feel like I’m trapped. I want out. An I’ve tried talking it out with my friends… But when I do they just shun me for having these thoughts. My best friends just keep telling me that it will be okay… But everyday it just gets worse and worse. I feel like I don’t want to live another day because all that’s waiting for me is pain… I’ve been heartbroken… It just hurts so bad… Two guys have led me on then left me for another girl… It makes me feel awful!!! And the worst part is that they dont even care a little bit that they hurt me… I’m trying so hard to get over it… But I can’t!! I don’t want to live with this pain. I’m thinking about commuting suicide… But it’s just so hard to think of me being here one second then gone the next… I’m so scared. Of everything. I’m scared to go to school because I know I have to see them… I’m just… Stuck. I don’t want to feel this way. I really don’t… And I’m so scared of going to other people because I’m scared of what they will say… How they will think of me. I’ve tried… I talked to my friends but that didn’t work… I honestly don’t know what to do. I have an okay life, but I just feel horrible. Everyday. Nobody gets how I feel… And I feel like they don’t even care… I know that it’s wrong but it’s just how I feel! I cry myself to sleep every night… I just want all this pain to end… And lately I’ve gotten tired of everyone I go to telling me stuff like “how dare you think that!!” or “I can’t believe you… You have good friends and a loving family… >:(” etc. so I’ve decided to just repress everything for my friends sake… But now I don’t have anyone to go to when I’m feeling sad… Please help me….
(sorry for any weird words that are there I have autocorrect)
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I am very distraught to hear that you feel so bad, and at such a young age. I remember when I was 13 I was running around chasing footballs without a care in the world, so it hurts to hear that you do not have that but instead are suffering.
Firstly, you MUST go to a councilor at school or ask your parents to get you the help you need. It is really important that you do that, so you can speak with a professional that can help you understand your pains and problems and hopefully help you with them. Friends at your age will not be the help you need, they could be more supportive, but you need an adult and a councilor will help to give you that support and protection that you need.
I can relate to many things you say, but you really do not want to go down the path that many of us are on, it is not worth getting stuck there because it leads only one way. I will not burden you with anything I am experiencing, but at your age I think you really need to get professional help as soon as possible and I am very sure that will help you a lot. Please do that before considering anything else.
I know I should go talk to an adult… I’m just so scared and worried about what they will say or do….
You can email me. Have you told your parents? I don’t seem to have much of a bad life either so I understand that life situation doesn’t comletely determine the way you feel.
I have not told my parents. I’m worried about telling her… About she will do or say.
Hey, i was on here a couple of months back feeling exactly the same, sometimes a new day and state of mind can change that .. please look after yourself and love yourself nobody else really matters at all
Wow Everlasting… I suck at giving advice >.< I'm too new to this. But I know I need help too before I can really help others. But yes you should talk to an adult. My giudence councilor yelled at me so I talk to teachers instead. They always listen. So I guess I mean if you go to an adult and they don't listen then try someone else. Someone will listen. And I will always listen too
Wolfhomepup@yahoo.com I have more to say so email if you can
No Dawn, your advice is really good – keep trying with an adult until someone listens. I think you will find that a reasonably responsible teacher/adult/councillor would listen very quickly to you and start to give you the advice and support that you need. You only have to read my posts to understand the mess I am in, but I feel the need to help others, especially when I see so many young people out here, it breaks my heart. I have had time to be beaten up and experience a great many things, but your lives are really just beginning.
LuckV_V – I know how scary it is to open yourself up. The only reason people know about some of my issues are because of my very public meltdowns with police and overdoses. I find it incredibly difficult to open up and trust others, but that is just because of my bad experiences. Take the step to speak to a responsible adult tomorrow and I am sure you will feel support straight away. Just be as clear as you can be with your feelings and that you want help.
Please, email me. I know exactly what you’re going through
I’m only 14 right now and I completely agree about a happy life and not being happy,
My email is- bnb.tnt@gmail.com
I’m glad im here for you now lucky 🙂