I broke up with him almost two weeks ago. I decided I wasn’t ready for a relationship with someone who I didn’t know that well. I knew he used to try to kill himself and cut himself and try to run away. Thats why it hurt so bad to do this. But I couldn’t be with him, I wasn’t ready, and I explained this to him. I’ve had problems before, with suicide and mental hospitals, so I know what it’s like. And I didn’t want him to do this. I made him promise that he wouldn’t do any of that. He broke that promise within a few days of the breakup. I was really busy with end of the year school work (my school loves to pile it on the last few weeks -_-) and didn’t answer any texts. Then he posted on Facebook about being in the hospital. Three times this week! I was terrified. I called and texted him immediately, asking what happened. he tried to jump off a cliff, but slipped and didn’t make it to the edge of the cliff. I have been talking to him every day since. I suggested using this site, because it really helped me… He keeps coming to me for advice, but I don’t know what to do. I’m a fourteen year-old girl. I live hours away from him. I cant help him alone.  Thankfully he is still alive, but his parents know nothing of his cutting or suicide, or any of that. He says he wont do it again, but how many times has he told me that? Too many, and all of them, lies. I just want him to get help. He is one of my best friends. I don’t know how many times I have asked him to get help. Too many. He says he can’t worry his mom anymore than she already is, so I asked him, would she be more worried if she knew you were safe somewhere getting help? Or dead at the foot of a cliff, or passed out from loss of blood coming from his arm, or with a bottle of pills next to him? Which would make her more devastated? I know, it’s a bit harsh, but its the only way I could get my message across. I don’t want him to do this to himself. And Devin, if you are reading this, PLEASE GET HELP! I care about you, too much to see you do this to yourself. Too much to let you do this to yourself. You need to get help. There is nothing wrong with asking for help. It can only make things better. Please.
~Anais
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not your job to fix him. some would argue that it is your job to tell the people closest to him about what he is dealing with. either way, i don’t really care, seven billion is too many. bicycles should have swords and scabbards. good luck. fourteen can be exceedingly crummy. don’t worry it either gets better or worse or doesn’t change. what does your name mean?