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I knew I had to come here and post SOMETHING…ANYTHING. But what do i say? That..I’m going to face the facts that I will be alone for the rest of my life. That I’m not worth as much as i thought I was…not even as pretty as I thought. That my razor is the only thing I have to love that is truly mine. My razor is the ONLY thing that loves me and my skin. Maybe…I give up and give in. Maybe I let my razor kiss my wrists tonight and bleed the meaning of the words i cant find…because SOMETHING ends tonight.
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Nuuuuuuuuuuuuu dun cut D:
You’ll have to do better than that.
To be honest I don’t think I have it in me to convince you not to hurt yourself. I just can’t bear to have you hurting yourself….I put everyone above myself…that means you too Rain Alicia. I may not be worth it to anyone but everyone else is worth it…talk to me…what’s wrong? I know how it feels to realize that you will be alone for the rest of your life..however long either of our lives may be.
…I cant talk to anyone. I cant trust anyone. And when i say alone, i dont just mean romantically. I mean i cant trust my family, my friends..or anyone else. I cant talk to you..i wish i could but..I just dont have the strength to hold a conversation. I no longer have the strength not to cut…or even to encourage people like before. My weakness is at an all time low.
…but thank you. Your effort is appreciated
Please don’t say that. You can trust me. I live to serve. As long as I am alive I will do my best to make everyone happy…especially people who share my pain. So please don’t say that please talk to me…you don’t have to trust me yet…or ever but don’t give up on having a conversation so fast.
ive been staring at my screen trying to write a reply…the truth is that there is none. The weakness ive been trying to hide so well and for so long has become obvious. I’m sorry. I really am sorry
What weakness is that? Please talk to me Rain Alicia…
Everything. I think too much, I love too much, I trust too much, I laguh too much, I cry too much, I’m too smart, I’m too ugly, too pretty…I have NO strength at all.
I fear this is may be last post. Idk if i’m going to cut my wrists but..something has to bleed.
There’s a lot of contradictions there. Don’t let it be your last post. Please don’t. If your going to cut then cut but don’t hit a major artery…if you love too much and trust too much and laugh too much and are too smart and too pretty then it’s okay. You sound amazing haha…which i could be described that way (:
You dont get it…i’m easy. I allow myself to be used hurt and abused. These qualities is what makes a person vulnerable. If a person has lived a horrible life like mine and still turns out this way, it drains them as people use and trash the limited supply of trust, care. love, laughs ect.
Some of these were also the things that I thought..i thought i was pretty..i thought i was smart…its not true. I’m not amazing..im pathetic
I’m sorry…to be used up and left to waste away after they’re done is horrible. I’m only good for when people need me other than that I’m mostly left alone :/ But Rain Alicia please don’t give up just yet…please..
How do you know you aren’t pretty? Beauty is all opinion based and for all you know you’re pretty and I’m ugly lol…:/ You aren’t pathetic. Pathetic is me.
You are very considerate and friendly..,there should be more like you…never pathetic..<3
I’m considerate? how so? :c More like me? If the world had more people like me we’d be screwed. I am pathetic. Sorry. ANYWAY this is about you not me so we shall continue the conversation about you.
I know how you feel, but please dont. I know this is late, but youre worth it. An ATE so are you! Neither of you is pathetic. I promise. You can trust that promise. And me.