boys.

Its been a while. but im having those thoughts again. I havent cut for a whole month but i want to do it sooo bad.
I kissed a boy, he told me he loved me and that he wanted to be with me. I didnt want to kiss him but he was so cute and i liked him so much. i knew that if i kissed him before we even started a real reltionship that something bad cud happen. And it did. We got in a fight the other day and we havent talked in 2 days. I texted him this morning but he hasnt replied. Gosh, i ruin everything. i fuck everything up. I started the fight. Ugh.