As a child, I used to idealize the world and humans .. I knew there were people with bad intentions, but my then-gullible-self believed the majority of us were working to make this world a place where one can feel alive most of the time (a better place) .. I used to see light and darkness wouldn’t have me shaken for too long .. I had genuine hope for the future (not that forced hope you’re expected to create)
From adolescence to when I dropped out, illusions had evaporated one after the other .. truth is people are overly concerned with improving their own situation, humans are more likely to deceive or hurt (and some really get a kick out of this) than care for each other and you can’t afford to rely on anyone if you want go through life without many wounds (or scars to be optimistic)
I went from being hopeful, trustful and rather passionate to being cynical, apathetic and hopeless .. while awakening from my illusions, life started to lose its colors and taste .. At 24, I’m more than fed up with being here yet I’m considered too young to die .. if I were to kill myself, it would be because my “cry for help†went unnoticed or that I refused to get help (LOL)
In my opinion, there’s just too much distrust, fear, anger and/or hate in people to dream of making life more enjoyable for all of us .. humanity is too broken and perverted to be “fixed” and I’m not inclined to believing in miracles
I wish that pov was just a projection of my own negativity .. the less interactions I have in real life, the more stable I can be .. throw me back into the social game and I’ll be unstable in a couple of weeks
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yes, i too feel the same
I thought i was indifferent to other people, while every other people are hand in hand trying to shape a better world
now i realized that that was incorrect, most people only care of themselves, and the front they show to people is mere mask
then and there i despaired upon humanity
but i believe that that can be changed, i believe that the corrupted world in turn creating corrupted people, like domino effect, still if the world be changed at it’s core
people can regain their humanity
in your opinion, how could we make this world less corrupted ? how would people regain their humanity ?
the existence of a common enemy?
just like NAZI way back
scapegoatism ? really ?
taking out the common enemy has proven to be more of a temporary fix than a long term solution .. I mean, shouldn’t jews know better than to take their anger/resentment out on palestinians ? Is life on earth merely about destruction and recovery ?
I don’t think humanity will -ever- learn from it’s own mistakes .. we’re trained to perceive ‘X’ or ‘Y’ group as the bad guys, then start to believe LIFE would be way better in their absence instead of recognizing we’re also a part of the problem
“You need people like me so you can
point your fingers and say ‘hey
there’s the bad guy!’ So what does
that make you? Good guys? Don’t
kid yourselves. You’re no better’n
me. You just know how to hide —
and how to lie. Me I don’t have
that problem. I always tell the
truth — even when I lie.”
(tony montana, scarface)
Not to sound cheesy but I honestly think if everyone put others before themselves it would almost be impossible to have such a depressing world. Instead of everyone living life to satisfy their own needs.. But living to help others. We all would be taken care of . Although that may never happen. ThAts what I think would help us.
you do have a point
if we were willing to put others needs before ours like 40-60% of the time, this place wouldn’t be the continuous nightmare it is now .. but since the ego appears too powerful, too dominering to escape to its potency, this world will only get worse in the years to come 🙁