I can’t do this shit anymore

No matter what the circumstance may be, you are worth living… Everyone has their problems they’re never worth taking your life for. From what it sounds you really just need to sit down and talk to someone. If your eating disorder is taking over your life it may be time to go to the hospital. That’s not a bad thing, I had a friend who had to go for anorexia. It completely ruled her life. Her parents took her to the hospital and i just saw her at a friends grad party looking happy and healthy. Whatever you decide to do dont take your life… Persevering through struggles isn’t a sign of weakness, its a sign of strength… Im here for you;)

They cant deny you no matter the situation. They are specialized in understanding how the eating disorder works no matter what the situation. I went through the same issues when i suffered from depression. Their would be days i would wake up and go throughout the day with a content but cautious mood, then their would be the days when i would wake up and wish i was never born. I felt claustrophobic, hopeless, worthless, like my life had no point and i would immediatley need help from a psychiatrist or my therapist. I started taking antidepressants which in the beginning i was completley against but i became soo desparate that i eventually gave in. I found out that taking the antidepressants isn’t a bad thing it actually has a lot of beneficial effects your brain. I haven’t suffered from an episode of depression or a panic attack in months… I think you should try to see a psychiatrist, and try an antidepressant. It will help regulate your mood swings so your not tortured by your mind like i was. I also found out that a crazy amount of my friends take antidepressants and there completley normal, that still shocks me. If your still against getting help you can still most definitley talk to me:)