Tonight I won’t lie about it, I won’t hide from it. I LOVEÂ you end of story. I’m finally crying for once and I feel a little bit. I just want to tell you that I forgive you and I love you and I want to be with you. But that would be so selfish of me and I can’t be selfish with you. I love you too much, you were unhappy with me and I couldn’t bare to know that I cause you that unhappiness. I know who you were and who you became I know that you’ve become an awful person who did awful things that hurt me. Honestly I forgive you for all of it and that’s why I let you go and continue to stay away from you. I just want to be able to heal to find myself to live life and find love again to find happiness. I wish the same for you I mean it I really do I don’t hate you and I’m not angry anymore. I miss you and I guess that still makes me sad. I cry because you were my perfectly imperfect dream and it faded away and it became a hopelessly broken dream. My heart aches still but I get by because I deserve to. Some days it’s pretty hard and it all seems so hopeless and pointless. But I’ll be ok eventually I hope because thats all I can do. I love myself I respect myself maybe just barely but I do. I deserve to love myself and I hope that one day I’ll be able to love myself more. Each day I live is another chance I get to remove some of this dark weight that I’m carrying. With the passing days I get closer to the day that I’ll finally have accomplished to set myself free from all this bad.
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Hi alina, hope you’re doing alright. I feel the same, still miss someone who left me but I am trying to take it day by day and learn to like myself and hope that one day someone will love me again. I’m trying to find my own happiness as well but it’s hard when you miss someone. Oh well, if we’ve made it this far we might as well keep going…
ime in love with my ex i miss her so much i cant live without her
The music of Mount Eerie gets me thru lately…and William Fitzsimmons. Both artists are tortured souls blessed to be able to convey emotions exceptionally well.
I’m doing the same thing you are right now, with what you’ve described
In times of foolishness, it’s fun to think that maybe one door closes so another door can open. It’s when we abandon all hope that we end up in sticky situations. Love fucks us up beyond recognition ..and at the same time, makes us feel alive and invincible. It’s no wonder we feel empty and hopeless when it’s gone. But foolishness kicks in again and puts the faintest thought of “maybe we can love again” in our heads. But only maybe. Depending on whether optimism or pessimism wins that debate, hope may rise again.
I miss my ex too 🙁 main reason why I wish I was dead. But I’m still here and in not giving up yet