I’ve been thinking about it for a while now. Years actually. Not just faking death, but just disappearing, to never be found. It’s not really to flee from anything. I’ve done nothing wrong. I just want to start over, new identity, new places. Just vanish overnight and no one will know where I went. I know there is going to be a lot ofÂ preparationÂ and planning involved. But I think this is going to be the best means of successfully restarting life.
I’ve contemplated actual suicide and just leaving everything and everyone. But I can’t do it. I’ve never had theÂ strengthÂ to end my life. I know some people can, and I’ve wanted to and tried many times, I just can’t. It’s not that I value life, it’s that I think I can start over, which is just as good.